the reasons I am who I am, are the basis for what I am passionate to write about,I care deeply that others are not harmed like my children were (and like I was).if by me coming out of my hiddy hole and putting myself out there, will help anyone, then it will have been worth it! my mother I put on a pedestal most of my life. she is no longer on one, but I have learned to grow and love her deeper for who she is, and what she has gone through as well. the church, it has helped,destroyed,confused,formed,altered,and now, does not exist for me anymore.I doubt I will ever be able to join one again. the last time, was enough for me. I have recently been able to finally come to terms with this issue for me, and I can finally worship on my own again now! praise the lord!! to me, my church is me, and of course watching and participating with my family. which tells you who my most pivitol being is...GOD!! my Mother influenced me is so many ways,her great unconditional love for me, is amazing because she has never failed to continue to do so, no matter how outrageous my life was. she also continued the quilting tradition, by passing down, what to me is one of my great passions, quilting(especially the old-fashion kind-handsewing).recycling is another of my great passions, so I love to combine them, and since I am so sentimental, memory quilts are just my thing! my children are my influences as well. I try to not be judgmental, and keep an open mind to their words, as they come to me, in their own times, in pain, joy, whatever, if I can, in any way, I will be there for them.I will continue to learn, grow and improve, and set up the proper boundries, as I learn them, for I do not want to ever enable, or be in denial, or not be able to face reality, and thank God some of my children accept me and are involved with me enough to help me do so.Kaisa Kraft, helped me tremendously for over ayear help me get back on track. she showed me a lot, and really cared, I believe! the internet, thank God, for giving me a voice, to try and show families through my writtings why it is important for families to care about each other and not to throw them away...we as human beings should care enough to HELP each other, and surround them with support NOT necessarily money, I am talking about family support where if an uncle, cousin, grandma,whomever, sees something is wrong, you should not just ignore it and write that person off. especially if there are children involved.

I changed the path I was going to enter when I left high school(I had volunteered as a candystripper,and took classes to be a nurse)but God gave me 11 children instead. I am sooo proud of each and every one of my children for accomplishing as much as they have in their lives! I have dissapointments too, but they are successes in my book!they have overcome so many more obsticles than most, and are beautiful people in their own ways!

I have been quilting all of my life. I just finished a very big set of rock and roll quilts for a gentleman in idylwild, calif.as soon as I can figure out how to get my photos of them here, I will.I am a novice on the computer, so please be patient with me. God bless

I am scared, but excited to be starting this venture!