I grew up in a village in Central Il. I knew that I was different than the other boys but didn't know why. In my mid teens, I understood that the God of my understanding (at that time) was a hateful God.
When I joined the Air Force, I maintained my standing in the Atheist Religion, but discovered something that changed my life for the better. I Was GAY!
It was a wonderful liberation. I immediately fell in love, but found out that the person that I was in love with wasn't the white picket fence kind of guy. It nearly destroyed me.
I became an alchoholic, in and out of relationships, until I moved to Denver. There is where God found me. I found myself in a church with a loving pastor (Priest) that quickly involved me in the church (Episcopal).
I got sober and fell into progessive stages of lay ministry, until I was finally called by and Old Catholic Church to be a deacon and then a Priest.
It was at that same time that I met a partner that I would be with for twenty years. Although he was a good man, he didn't have a lust or love for life.
I did. Everthing was a banquet to me. After twenty years I finally left, and came back to Illinois, defeated and longing for a God that I had grown distant from.
I finally met a man that I had been conversing on a men's dating site with, and the sparks flew! I reconnected with the God that I had been missing and found emotion to be a good thing again.
It is this man that has made these poems possible.
I will l let you be the judge of my poetry