Born again & Baptised at 10 years old. Goals were to be a missionary. Took voice & piano. Often played piano & sang in church. Traveled & sang lead with True Tone Quartet across Texas to gospel conserts. Often sung for special events as featured singer. My voice teacher told my parents I could sing opera if I wanted too and be in New York by 21... But I rebelled.
At 16 I ran off to marry, un-equally yoked - 5 yrs my senior. Parents fought it but in the end my rebellion won[?]. Had 5 children, but always under GOD's Divine protection. Today I can only give credit to GOD for raising my children. After 7 rocky yrs of marriage & 5 children - sharing my husband with at least 3 other women who had 3 more of his children His coming home every 3 to 4 days to leave me with black eyes, broken limbs, and deeper inner hurts, I finally ran him off with a shot gun. Things went from bad to worse from there because he & his girl friend disappeared for 3 years. I got my divorce. They say what does kill you makes you stronger and I am a witness to that.
Over the years I owned & ran 2 beer joints, had sugar dadies, took dope, smoked dope and did so much that could have landed me in prison I don't even like to think about it. But looking back I see GOD's Mighty Hand of protection as I walked thru satan's ground in hurt & pain, seeking someone to help. Not understanding HE was there all the time, as many today do not understand that because believers tend to be insulated to the world.
During all this I managed to marry five guys. My thinking was with each one they would be a good father to my 4 boys & 1 daughter, and I loved everyone of them. But failing to see that each man was as blind as I was to what my childen & I needed. Today I understand that there are not many men who could love & care for 5 children that belong to another, with out GOD's love in their heart and even than, it would be hard. However, when they mistreated my children, no matter how I felt about them, I showed them the door. I always figured my children were their first and I had an obiligation to be there for them. Regardless of the state I was in, they were better off with 'mom' because I loved them unconditionally.
In 1982 GOD spoke to me and I listened. Even thru all the years of misbehaving, I had always managed to keep a Bible near and read it often. Even in a state of stupor I was faithful to do that. I had seen so many miracles over my life time of those coming back from death, healed of brain cancer, and even my own healing that I could never doubt GOD is real but I never realized how real nor how close.
After 1982, GOD put me into the right to life ministry, and than the homosexual ministry. and now prison ministry for past 15 years. I see & understand past the traps & walls that satan puts up to keep us blinded to the light, to keep us as his subjects. GOD has given me the ability to write one page articles daily to give light in dark places. When I get discouraged, GOD always sends me a letter from an inmate thanking me for being there & helping them return or find their way.
Today I am a real estate broker with my own company in a burned out economy, but understanding the most important thing I can do is the prison ministry and knowing as long as I am faithful to GOD, HE will be faithful to me.