|
My greatest influence is the good Lord in heaven above. For many years I did not know that he was with me, let alone that he heard me. This past November 2006, I was shown the most incredible love that I have never known...the process of preperation....and the preperation of process. The unvieling of the blinders being removed, to the humbleness of my eyes being wide open is the gentle process of beauty in pain in order for me to grow.When I was a little girl I would go and hide with my coloring books and crayons....this was the only way I could escape what was going on in our house....this would comfort me and allow me to get lost in my thoughts. I would sit and color only the flowers,trees,birds, and butterflies and I would think these thoughts...that true love did exsist and it was real, that one day I would have it too....Now all these years later these thoughts as a child was brought before me as I heard him say " I saw it all, and I heard you say as a child that love did exsist and that you would have it...I've waited for you, and I've wanted to give it..I'm not mean nor am I angry with you...I loved you through it all", I cried I knew it was true and the love I believed in as a child, was indeed given to me, in more than one way.Many things have I done and wish I could take back, yet in the mist of it all I knew that I have been for given. I could focus on all the bad I supose, but what would that bring me, yet I chose to look at it all, as painful as it is, to grow in the beauty of his grace. When I reflected back I began to see how many times I was told that I would write a book...I thought about it long and hard, for I knew that I had no high school diploma nor g.e.d, and the streets became my school...yes I was scared of the thought of it all. I went to the Lord in prayer and asked him if thats what he wanted me to do, the answer was yes...so his book was written Patented by Almighty God. He was with me as these words were written...he taught me how to write from the heart and not the head...he showed me how to let all the words flow and how to trust and believe. He gave me some one who would encourage me and lift me...he brought me Rick. Many hours was spent of Rick listening to me, praying with me standing by my side, this too was new to me and something that I knew only God could bring. One of the most valuable lessons that I have learned is this: its not whats done to you that matters most, its how you grow in the journey that makes the difference, the process of preperation and preperation of process... I have always loved helping, giving as best I can to comfort, to be a friend...the hearts of people hold their dreams and how they believe, I just want them to know that I have not forgot them and that what I have they may have it too..they were heard, they were seen they are The Art. So to all of you that may stop to read about me, please know this,
With the Fathers Love, I love you all,
God Bless each of you,
Wendy S Ryals
|