Hello world,

For years I have been getting my feet wet writing on many different topics, entering various contests, and just writing to quench my own thirst, but now it's time to take the plunge and drench the world with fluidity of thought.

I married the love of my life at age ninteeen. Our son Stephen,the other love of my life, was born almost a year to the day of our first anniversary, and as fate would have it, he was our only child.When he was five years old we left the glitz and grit of New York City and headed  for the the hills of South Dakota. He graduated hign school and went on to Villanova University in Pennsylvania. Around the same time my husband Steve and I moved to Minnessota. After graduatingVillanova our son attenteded Pepperdine Law School. He was admitted to the Bar of California and New Jersey shortly after graduating  from Pepperdine.We were such proud parents. I had it all. A wonderful loving husband and an accomplished beautiful son.   My life was complete. I was living my dream.

That dream began to fall apart when six years ago my husband and I divorced, and then six months later my beautiful son died. He died the day before my birthday. Six months later again, while still living that double nightmare, another person in my life died. He died five days before my son's birthday. All my life all I ever wanted was to be was a  wife and mother, and for thiry beautiful years I was...And then suddenly I was neither...I found myself alone.

 For the next two years I roamed the desert of my parched soul  wondering who I was. Why was I here, and what the hell was all of this about? Then after what seemed like a million years, a thousand books, endless hours of soul searching, and limitless conversations with the spirit in the sky,(who, by the way, I was very angry with) it was time to pull the cactus needles from my heart, and find my oasis.

Now with gusto and a better understanding of who I am,I go forward. I celebrate life everyday with a renewed awareness of all that is. I want only to be an uplifting and encouraging energy to everyone I meet. And although I may sometimes fall short of that goal, I manage to get back into balance with a quick bounce. One book that had an enormous and profound impact on me was ,"The Mastery Of Love" by Miguel Ruiz. Another was "Soul Love" by Sanaya Roman. Those are just two of too many to mention.

Parts of my journey I would not want one human being to experience, though I know many have, and some have lived through much worse. But much of my life I do wish all people could experience.  For the most part  I am sincerely grateful for my life and say so everyday. After all--I was married for thirty years to a wonderfully sweet man, and together we created a most beautiful son who brought only joy and love to our lives.

That love and joy continues still in his most precious memories, and better yet, in the child he left behind. Yes, a little piece of himself, our now six year old grandson, Dante.

Thank you for your time and may our time together be a valuable experience to all of us.

Razz