I feel sick, my head is spinning,
I'm on my knees, my eyes are crying,
I'm so useless, I'm thinking of you,
I'm in a room of trip wires,
bombs going off before my eyes,
crying myself into a corner, I'm needing somewhere safe to hide.

There's no hope to believe in, all earlier confidence died inside,
I feel betrayed by your sweet good kindness,
who could deserve a wretch like me,
what stupid horrible twist of fate,
to see the pain I'm causing you in your face,
the image haunts me, I can't sleep,
please don't of me a bitter memory keep.

My heart is breaking as the pressure mounts,
I feel I'd die if you hated me,
in a deep abyss I'm falling,
there's no one to hold me to stop the sinking,
affection I can't have for fear of pain,
pain caused and pain recieved,
pain is left as hope recedes,
idiotic dreams and stupid screw ups,
would it have been better if you hadn't met me,
would it undo if I left you alone,
with someone better you could find a home,
I'm only good for causing pain,
I'm lost in a sea of self hatred and shame...