I was a faithful wife---all 23 years of our marriage.  I never even lusted after another man in my heart.  My momma said thinking about sex with another man other than your husband was wrong and sinful and I would surely go to hell if I did. 

So my question is, if I was so faithful why wasn’t my husband?  Well, he’s my ex husband now so I guess the question is moot.  But I’ll tell you what he said to me before he packed his bags and left.  He told me I didn’t have what it took to please him sexually.  He said I never did but he married me anyway because I was a “good girl” and he was hoping one day I would break out of my cooped-up, sexually timid shell and go buck wild.  Of course, he never told me that until the day he left. 

For months I was heart-broken.  How could the man of my dreams be blind-sided by an overwhelming need to have sex?  I thought our relationship was built on a spiritual love that transcended the physical realm.  Although I admit I didn't enjoy sex all that much, I obliged most of the time because I wanted so desperately to please my husband.  It obviously wasn’t good enough. 

After I decided I wasn’t going to be miserable about the break-up anymore, I decided to make a change.  That was five years ago.  Now let me tell you what I’ve been doing since then…..