It was only decades later that I was focused enough to put "Bader Field together, although randomly at first as it started mainly as homage to my father so my children would know the greatness of the man who had passed away far too soon.

As the story unfolded, it expanded dramatically and encompassed a far broader perspective to include the horrific loss of my brother.  The darkest days of my life needed to be revealed and relived in order to accurately show our family dynamic and how we survived.

It became my hope that the story would give hope, light and love to anyone at that edge of desperation and bring them back from the brink of extinction to the many avenues of help that are available and to show those pained souls that such a final act doesn't just take their life, but in large measure, those of their loved ones, friends and acquaintances as well.

So my dream was to turn an era of horror into a positive by paying it forward with the aim of saving lives, as many as possible.  And for that reason alone, this is a book that must be read and read widely for it crosses all borders and is blind to indifference and bias.