We are told in scripture to not grow weary in our waiting. Waiting is to be a good thing.
22-25 - All around us we observe a pregnant creation. The difficult times of pain throughout the world are simply birth pangs. But it's not only around us; it's within us. The Spirit of God is arousing us within. We're also feeling the birth pangs. These sterile and barren bodies of ours are yearning for full deliverance. That is why waiting does not diminish us, any more than waiting diminishes a pregnant mother. We are enlarged in the waiting. We, of course, don't see what is enlarging us. But the longer we wait, the larger we become, and the more joyful our expectancy. (Romans 8 - Msg Bible)
As I sit here, pondering in my heart the things of God I'm supposed to be doing, this portion of scripture popped out at me.
The thought of being surrounded by a "pregnant creation" intrigues me. The joy of pregnancy is tied to the supposed agony of waiting. Yet in pregnancy, the true blessing is in the waiting. In the waiting sweet little fingers and toes are perfectly formed begging to be kissed by admiring parents. It is the waiting that insures life. We watch, however impatiently at the ever growing tummies, sometimes focusing on the right things in the wrong ways.
The weight gain, the swollen body parts, the cravings, the occasions that seem to propel us into areas we never wanted to be in, are all a portion of our part of the blessed process.
So if waiting is just a process that begins with conception and more often than not ends in a glorious - albeit painful birthing of the miraculous - why do we dread it so?
Why do we often faint in the waiting? Yes, I remember feeling like I was going to be pregnant forever! It was the longest 40 weeks of my life! Could this be the reason we SAY nine months of pregnancy, but that it's safe to deliver anytime after the thirty-eighth week?
The thought has always made me chuckle.
So, really, how long has it been since you conceived that thing you've been begging God for was placed in your heart? I'm not speaking about false pregnancies, you know, those times when you got off track and tried to somehow help God bless us. Nor am I speaking about the time we spent in the wrong places doing the wrong things.
I'm speaking about your estimated time of confinement, waiting for the birth of your blessing.
Expectant parents make plans. They furnish nurseries. They read books and sometimes take classes. The good ones prepare themselves for parenthood.
What are you doing in your wait? Are you doing as I did, murmuring, complaining, crying yourself to sleep - ARE YOUR SLEEPING?
How unhealthy a pregnancy that is? Pregnant women prepare their bodies for birth and life after birth so that prayerfully that can give birth to eternity once again.
How prepared are you for what you're now begging God for? How healthy is your spiritual pregnancy?
The wisdom of God tells us that hope deferred makes the heart sick, and yet any other thing deferred has the ability to make the heart glad - house or car payments.
We are also told that: "NOW faith IS the substance of things hoped for...."
It does cross my mind, as I look back on my life, that I could have waited better. I could have focused on the positive more than the negative. I could have allowed God to freely have His way in my situation from the beginning.
I could have found the joy of the LORD in the expectancy of my situation, even if it meant counting down the days as one who has been imprisoned.
I could have stood on the word of the LORD like the mighty soldier of God I proclaimed myself to be and yet, I whined and moaned and complained and did all manner of evil against God - even unto believing that he might just want me to suffer this time.
I suppose, my purpose for writing this to you is to point out the enemies' role in your wait. The wall he has built around you - so that you can no longer see or hear your God - is but a mere mirage. I can say that on this side of my wait - looking back - yes 20/20 vision.... I wasted a lot of time grieving. Sadly, I wasted time.
Can you imagine having one week to prepare for the birth of triplets? God never blesses half way, so the manifestation of your blessing WILL catch your off guard, especially if you're wasting time.
I can now praise God for the waiting I had to endure. The hope that seemed deferred. Yes, even the seeming unanswered prays. Hallelujah for unanswered prayers!
Prepare for your manifested blessing.... there is grace, mercy and life in the waiting.
And therefore will the LORD wait, that he may be gracious unto you, and therefore will he be exalted, that he may have mercy upon you: for the LORD is a God of judgment: blessed are all they that wait for him.