And then I remembered - I'm still breathing, I've got my health and I've got the support of my partner in life and love. There are many aspects of life that I don't have control over, but why let that stop me? I'm not going to get out of this life alive , so let's give it my best shot.
Since thinking that, I stopped focusing on my problems and thought about what I could do for others. My colleagues and I have found enough work to pay our bills and our staff. Our company has donated money to the bushfire and flood relief charities. We've also introduced a new sustainability policies at work to use electricity from 100% renewable sources, recycle paper, and reduce petrol/diesel consumption (I believe strongly that we shouldn't waste our natural resources). I've also managed to write almost five chapters of my new book.
I guess the lesson I learnt over the last two months is this: life is always going to throw events at me that I will find fearful or upsetting. I can either get depressed and sit tight waiting for someone else to sort out the world; or I can accept the problems and do my best to help my own little corner of the world, and keep chasing my dreams.
I suppose none of us can control all the circumstances of life, but we all get to choose how we react. There is a old proverb that says risk and opportunity are the opposite sides of the same coin. If the coin represents life's events, it must take a lot of practice to see both sides at the same time, but I thinks it will be worth it.
Have a thoughtful week