Someone will put-" Si fallor sum" and  "But Albert"-  together et voila' , a perfectly logical and disgusting cosmology, but also  finally something that can be worked with, and  fixed somewhat, So dump those celestial spooks and get to work!

 ok, you may not avoid a black hole or some other odd celestial cathastrophies, but you may finally get your utopia house in order,  no, no paradise on earth, a scaled down version, save a lot on defense, and get a grip of this thing called man . It might surprise you once you cut off the heavenly apron strings! 

 Lots of odds mean lots o mistakes,  2 weeks ago I was so weak that I thought  if I take  those 63 sleeping pills I had accumulated and a couple of shots of sambucca, that  should take care of me, but just to make sure after a while i went to the van to add elium to the coktail. Fell etc etc. nearly two days later , comatose, dehydrated am found in piss hot van, they take me to emergency, dr Jenkings  tells me my hemoglobin is down to 43. They are going to give me blood.! I refuse!  She says I am going to die and she says it like no ifs and buts. In fact she gives me 48 hours. I agree. I am going o die . That was over two weeks ago! I have now a even lower hemo, i Have hardly eaten one meal, in two weeks, apart my scabs  and I am here still. I do have a new cosmology though, but Gameteus is kind of lost in it.  yet there is something fuzzy but interesting on the horizon, but heck how long can i last? I have to study  GOT again, because  I think I have barely touched the surface. Seems that this jesus is not even in the ball park with Christ  yeaweh and everbody ese. He may not even be in the ball park with jesus, at least as we have figured him out so far. Wow!  is he in VEGAS?

I ham getting this strong feeling that he is, and that it is a mystical realm of which we have only explored its entertaining surface... ah!  a  religion mistaken  as a game, ... just like the other major games have been mistaken as mystical  religions on which we bet our eternal soul. And I have also a strong feeling that Gameteus has a major role to play in this mystic kind of  Vegas.

the odds of mystic idiots!  big odds! Mmmm!

Cindy dropped in to check on me, see how am I doing. and I went over the precedig reflection with her, saying that I fully expected to drop dead within hours or days of my decision not to extend my life by drips and drooles. but here I am and hell if I dont come up with an idea that makes me gladd that i am still alive. So I tell her the famous case of Aristotele  who counted wrongly the legs of insects and as a consequence of his status as a scientist and naturalist forover 1500 years or so nobody bothered to check if he had counted right, then I  tied it in with my case where  all of a sudden after 60-80  years or so I got the idea to check if Albert had been right when he stated that God does not play with dice, and low and behold I was so glad that I had lived that day to do something that someone should have done long before me.  And so I proposed to her that though I may not live long enough  for another bright idea to come along, To get up from the couch and to get me a glass of water was for me an immense struggle  that could better be put to use in trying t figure out how a spiritual being as Gameteus fits into a world of  proportions and chances.[divine geometry] 

 In fact i AM  still reeling from the notion that for  so long , no one had caught on to the possibility that Albert's assertion had frozen an issue that in being so wrong  could have been so productive a base for a completely  new look at the logic of  existence. 

If you put on the table,  Natural selection -, the imbalance principle,  chance , and throw in a quantum or two it all comes up on the up and up.  All that is left is Gameteus -that is the - ergo sum!  If God existed and he threw dice,  this is exactly the kind of universe that would have rolled out.  And so there is No God, but the dice are rolling Albert!  Anyone can tell that!

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all that is left is Gameteus -and one ergo or another!

 And how stupid can anything get  !!!!!!!!!

 decrypting the secret saying of jesus and posting it on the Net, then no one will taste death. I had this nagging feeling  but I just kept going,  because stutpidity is a so attractive... but then I had to take another look, and wouldn't you know . this stupid thing everyone is  doing is one  of thne most incredibly fascinating  puzzles ever proposed....  Hard even to know where to start!!!!

finally getting to do a bit of editing in this scrap book!  Not much thougj!!!