please be praying for us. tomorrow we go in for our doctors check up, to make sure everything is good for wed. wed is the most important day so far in our journey. please pray that our little girls eyes will be stable, with no alive cancer in her eyes. i just hate thinking that we might get the news that there is nothing more that they can do, and we have to go to radiation, as our last chance to save her vision. we have been having so much fun lately. she is turning out to be quite the little fireball. she is just full of excitement, and always wants to be chased, or tossed into the air, or tickled, or teased. she's my little buddy. we do everything together. we go to guitar center, and she turns into a different person. she goes nuts in that store. she wants to touch every guitar there, and wants to play them, then she goes into the drum part, and she wants to play all the drums. oh, it's music to my ears to hear her playing instruments. she plays with my guitars, but when there are 100 guitars to play with and touch she just thinks it's the coolest thing. i'm confused because we have such incredible days in between these eye exams that are so normal, but after every great memory that we make, my mind goes to the what if's. i dont like having every happy moment robbed by thinking about what might come, what we might hear about her eyes or her body. i wish so much that we could be like almost everybody else, and just watch our baby grow without knowing that she has a serious disease. i wonder all the time what is going on inside of her eyes. please, please , please pray that there is nothing going on inside of those beautiful blue eyes. nothing new, nothing dead coming back alive, no active seeds, and that the thing that they dont know for sure what it is, to not even be cancer. sorry this one is so long, but we need nothing but good news on wed.

 

TODAY, TUESDAY, OCT. 28, I READ THE LATEST ENTRIES IN ESA'S GUESTBOOK.  ONE IN PARTICULAR WAS VERY HELPFUL AND ENCOURAGING NOT JUST FOR THE NEISWENDER FAMILY, BUT FOR ANYONE ENDURING  TRIALS.  IT'S A LONG ONE; YOU'LL BE ABLE TO FIND IT EASILY.  IT'S DATED MONDAY, OCT. 27 AND IS FROM BARB FOSTER.     Just go to Caring Bridge, and note today's entry on Esa.  At the bottom of the Journal entry, there is a link for the Guestbook.  Every time I go there, I am uplifted by the things people write to Blair and Terise to keep in touch and encourage them.

http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/teresaneiswender