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Blogs by Claudio Ianora
dripping dead
9/27/2011 1:16:27 PM
watching myself shrivel up
Gee , am feeling like the wandering jew. done some funny things in the state i am in. Mel , a well tanned viking strong as an ox, sits there balancing a beer on his knee and complaining about his allergy to dust. So I get the vacuum out, and the place really needs it, and I do the whole place properly like it may have never been done before. and i feel good about it, my trophy is a dust pan heaped with fine dirt that i scooped up from under the entrance rug and a lot of dessicated flies and spiders from the window sills. I am beyond exhaustion, my heart is pounding so fast I cannot count and I am gasping for breath , yet i feel good- and what I strangely find even cheerful - a little stupid. The notion i have been trying to implement across the board this last few years, is that i should aim to do what is right...[aphorism #26 in my A.D. bio] - i think- doing right is much easier than trying to do good, but I am not sure that my condition should not be taken into account here. Anyways, I can only die vacuuming! It is probably way down the list, maybe not even on it! There, another reason to feel cheerful beside being stupid.
That was a couple of days ago, to day I am trying to decide if I should go get my blood checked. I see no signs of blood in me. my body it seems is compensating for the lack of it by dessicating like the flies and the spiders on the sills ,but this, while I am still alive! Oh , to tell you the truth, i have no way of knowing if I am indeed alive. But I am losing mass! Right? Therefore I am! The skin on the inside of my fingers and even on the palms of my hands is wrinkling. If I keep going, I will be able to observe my own mummification. hahaaa! That too I find cheerful. Hell, I never liked rules, why should I start accepting them now just because it involves something as common as death?
Mmmmh, I dont remember if I did figure out why the termination program never fails. Technically it ought to! it is a program after all! Yet it never ever happens. I augur myself that it wont start now. I do not fancy the idea of being a living... mmh, an immortal mummy.
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