Dammit, I Feel!
Sometimes I feel bad, sometimes I feel good,
sometimes I have myriad and nuances of feelings that appear anywhere along the continuum between good and bad. Sometimes my feelings are beneath bad or beyond good. But whenever, whatever and wherever, I feel. My feelings are always present.
Dammit, I feel!

My feelings are my feelings. They are not yours
or anybody else's; My feelings are not supplanted by, but complimentary with, my hopes and my faith. So be forewarned, do not tell me "you can't go by your feelings, you can't trust your  feelings, you shouldn't  feel that way. My definite, unequivocal and emphatic response to you is,
Dammit, I feel!

When I cannot trust politicians, the news media, weather reports, Supreme Court, medical experts, good house keeper's approval labels on products, or friends whose intentions and sincerity are not suspect, I can trust my feelings.

Do not ask me what I know about this or that, or how to perform some task. If you want to know me ask me "How do you feel? Or, listen to what I say, observe what I do, and you will see my feelings that are as visible as the wind that you see only with the eyes of your soul, not with your physical eyes. My behavior reflects my feelings. In truth, my feelings determine my behavior.

Maya Angelou makes the point when she states: "I've learned people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."

Sometimes I feel sad, sometimes I feel gay, sometimes I feel happy, sometimes I feel nonchalant, sometimes I feel enthusiastic, sometimes I feel bad, sometimes I feel good, sometimes I feel between bad and good or beneath bad and above good. But always, in consciousness, I feel.
 
So when you see me behaving in a certain
way, in any way, know that my feelings are
on the line. I have no need to fake my feelings
or act contrary to them. I can be true to my feelings no less than I am to my physicality.
For my feelings determine my actions. They
are my most important possession. Without
them nothing else I possess would matter, certainly, not enough.

If you want to know me, acknoweldge my feelings.
Dammit, I feel!

Copyright 2012 by Uriah J. Fields