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He Could Never Say
by The Bear Paw
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Rated "G" by the Author.

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Before I was eight
I knew of him
if he was home
he had been drinking
and would taunt Mom
and soon there would be
cups of hot coffee and
raw eggs flying across the room
When I would ask him
why Mom was crying
He would never say.

He could play the
steel guitar like a professional
and sang just like
Hank Williams Sr.
but that was when he
had his drinking buddies over
and would taunt mom
and soon there would be
stereo speakers thrown
out the windows into the rain
and chairs flying across the room
and Mom locked in her bedroom
When I would ask him
why Mom was crying
He would never say.

They divorced when I was eight
and didn't see him again,
no letters, no phone calls,
no visits, till he showed up
for my high school graduation
ceremony and when I asked him
why now
He would never say.

25 years later I heard of
his passing a month
after his funeral.  
He came to me
in a dream
said he had
something to tell me
I turned my back and asked
Why now
But he disappeared and
he would never say.

I know this is late
after the day they
say is for fathers
but considering from
whence this came
it's better late
than never.

 

 

(c) Carolyn Red Bear, 2009
all rights reserved

 

 


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Reviewed by MaryGrace Patterson 8/10/2009
Sadness and hurt are emitted in this profound write. I can feel your pain and can well imagine what it must have been like ! My dad drank a lot during the later years of his life . Our whole world changed dramitically!....M
Reviewed by Richard Orey 7/27/2009
I understand the pain expressed in "He Could Never Say." But I'll confess that in some instances it's better never than even late.
There are some items of ugliness I've known that I would just as soon leave buried.

Today is all we have. Enjoy every moment and fill it with the things that are important and worth remembering.

This is a raw offering, Bear, and it took guts to share it. Thank you.

Richard
Reviewed by Jim West 7/27/2009
Like so many others, I can relate to this poem. With the exception that I got to talk to him right before he died. And he did show a little remorse.
Reviewed by ~ H (Reader) 7/13/2009
Hello Carolyn, I had one too, very similar only he didn't need the bottle to use for an excuse to abuse. Sadly there are many of us who have come from such lives. An excellent write. Holly
Reviewed by Ronald Hull 7/4/2009
At eight, my father would come home drunk, and a fight would begin. And I believe, my mother had an affair in retaliation. They fought together 62 years but never parted.

This is a sad write. I hope, by writing it, your healing has begun.

Ron
Reviewed by Edwin Hurdle 6/30/2009
A very moving and powerful poem.take care and God bless you

EDWIN
Reviewed by Ray { Not a Poet } 6/30/2009
Sorry you had to go through that,It is a sad way to grow up
You seem to me, to be a nice person dispite the past
Great write as always, have a good day
The Buzzard
Reviewed by K. Mulroney 6/29/2009
For sad. But I'm right there with ya only it was my mother. My father left me when I was two. So I get the jest, very sad but in the end your a better man than he.
Reviewed by Karla Dorman, The StormSpinner 6/29/2009
*tears* Powerfully penned sadness, Bear - undone. So sorry for your loss -

(((HUGS))) and love, Karla.
Reviewed by Joseph* OneLight*® 6/29/2009
Hello Bear,

I had a father like this too but my parents never divorced. He has passed away and I have finally forgiven him. Nicely written from the heart.

Love & Light always and in all ways,
Joseph
Reviewed by Georg Mateos 6/29/2009
"The feathers of the arrow can't fly alone, they will be taken along even when the arrow gets broken." 2007 Sioux Wounded Eagle

Georg

Reviewed by Karen Vanderlaan 6/28/2009
there is such sadness in this write-i am sorry-pretty tough stuff-expressed well
Reviewed by Christine Alwin 6/28/2009
...riveting story that tugs at my heart..beautifully written.
Reviewed by Felix Perry 6/28/2009
Carolyn my heart and open arms go out to you for no child deserves this. My first wife and I argued a lot when my baby girl was only yyoung and we eventually did divorce but I never ever considered leaving my daughter behind, I took her every weekend, every holiday and any other time I could get her. She is now my pride and joy and I now also have her little girl in my life to love and treasure as well. He (your father) gave up so much when he walked away from you and the beautiful woman you have become.
hugs
fee

Reviewed by John Flanagan 6/28/2009
Carolyn,
Such powerful emotion in these honest honest words, this is from the heart and from direct experience, it has to be. It will take me a while to recover from this, yes, quite a while.
John
Reviewed by Debra Bateman 6/28/2009
Excellent Bear Paw.
Many of us had fathers like this, they never know why.
Even as adults it still hurts and they go on as if nothing happened.
Thanks for sharing.
-Debra
Reviewed by L. Figgins 6/28/2009
Don't know why my son has seen his father only four times in the 25 years since the divorce. During the last visit, he complained that his son didn't show love for him(our son is autistic). Was this a supreme case of immaturity or an expression of guilt? I believe the latter. Since then, he hasn't been back...You will never forget, but you must forgive. Release him and you release the hold on your life. If you know his family history, perhaps this can help you to understand his lack of not being able to show love. Many times, as children we take rejection as a sign of our lack and we internalize the pain. You have probably taken on your mother's pain, as well. Writing this honest poem took courage and is cathartic. Wishing you peace and healing...Lin
Reviewed by Gene Williamson 6/28/2009
Touching, moving, honest, Bear. Perhaps his mere presence at your graduation said more than all the words he was unable to speak. What a pity that he missed so much. -Beautifully crafted. -gene.
Reviewed by Paul D Berube 6/28/2009
Well said Bear.
Reviewed by Sara Coslett 6/28/2009
Maybe he didn't know himself. I think he loved you just the same and I bet if he had the courage to speak it, he would have told you so, but maybe he was afraid he didn't deserve your love back. ~ Sara
Reviewed by Patrick Granfors 6/28/2009
I know this is late
after the day they
say is for fathers
but considering from
whence this came
it's better late
than never.... It's better than both. It's forever. A remarkable poer Bear. Patrick
Reviewed by Karen Lynn Vidra, The Texas Tornado 6/28/2009
Poignant write, Bear; I am so sorry for your loss! You are ever in my prayers and thoughts; may God be with you during this time of grief!

(((HUGS))) and much love, your friend in Tx., Karen Lynn. :(
Reviewed by Gerald Tate 6/28/2009
Life goes on, and bad memories fade. You'll do just fine.

Beautiful piece of writing.

Gerry
Reviewed by Ed Matlack 6/28/2009
I would say to you what you said to me when you stopped by my site as well you are growing away from him like you have since you were eight...Ed & Rufuz
Reviewed by E T Waldron 6/28/2009
A poignant, sad, remembrance, beautifully written,Bear!
I'm sad for all who had fathers like this...makes me
realize how blessed I was!

Love,
Eileen
Reviewed by Joyce Bell 6/28/2009
WELL WRITTEN THIS WORK EXPOSES THE EMOTIONAL TURMOIL FELT BY AN INDIVIDUAL THAT NEVER GOT ANSWERS FOR PAINFUL CHILDHOOD EXPERIENCES ...EXPERIENCES THAT PRODUCED THIS VERY TOUCHING PIECE. THANKS FOR SHARING AND GOD BLESS.
Reviewed by Regis Auffray 6/28/2009
Incredibly sad and real and honest; I find your sharing deeply moving, Caro. Love and best wishes to you,

Regis


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