So tired am I
Mentally and physical exhaustion prevail
No end to open tranquility
Caught in a whirlwind of purple haze

There is an urgency to get into my car
An endless drive with no destination
A need to clear my boggled mind
From all the dust that clings around me.

I have tried so very hard
To be loving, caring, and compassionate
One that always had put others before my needs

Why is it others so close that I love…
Tend to pass negative judgment upon me?
They portray me as a taker
When I am constantly giving

They see not what I do
Nor how much I care
Walls have closed in around me these last 18 months

My father had passed on
My husband lost his income
Bankruptcy was filed
We had to give up our home.
All that has come to pass

There are still those that snicker
thinking I have profited
At their expense

Life,
An unfair lady is she
She makes one travel
Down a thorny hard road

Why is it those closest to you
Are the harshest judges of your character?
Shouldn’t they be on your side?
Supporting you?
Sharing your burden?

Oh no…
They manage to shift life’s burdens
Onto your already sagging shoulder
Leaving you to stand alone

I ask you,

How can I be expected to be so strong?
Inside I feel fragile
As that of an empty eggshell

When does it end?
Where does the road clear?
Is there anyone I can turn to?
Is there anyone that really cares?

I learn to turn my thoughts upward
Lean on my faith
Dig deep within myself
To summon up the only one that cares about me

And understand that however
Tiresome and difficult the journey
I must go on
       I will go on!

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