Cops from space
My poetry isnít innovative enough, they say
but I shouldnít take it personally they say
perhaps if I galloped the words around the edges of the page it would be innovative enough
or typed it from the bottom of the page to the top
long lines uninterrupted by period or comma,
Would I be considered innovative enough?
Iíve always been innovative in other ways
but my feelings are not fresh enough, I am not fresh enough
if they only knew the struggle I have gone through to attain this unacceptable peace
the torments of mind and soul, swept away to a loony bin twice now
would those emotions be more acceptable to those who make the decisions?
what about the days spent trembling because I was alone in the house
or nights spent with ear against the wall convinced somebody had planted a waterfall behind it
with the purpose of driving me insane
I could write of the night I tried to jump out of the car while my husband drove me to the hospital
so convinced was I that I would land safely
or the dent that is still in the walls of the quiet room
from the bible I hurled against it
the cops I beat with my bare fists as they lifted me onto the stretcher in order to tie me down
their arms covered in black padded gloves I thought
they were some kind of sinister messengers from space
would this be more acceptable to those who make the decisions?
would it be considered innovative?