Young demigoddess who so coolly ignores my angst, queen of autumnal avenues dipped in golden twilight, won’t you show me the path to nature’s purest ventricle? I want to learn your pagan passion, and be part of your amorous druidism…. I may have stemmed from the light but the more I learn about you the more the dark holds my attention. You are the source of spell, the mother of rebirth. Winter, fall, spring and summer are all one within you, for you breathe life into every realm that I am sentenced to endure. You are memory incarnate; you take me back to places that I thrived in, and without you those places are lost forever. Heiress to the mid warm night, I am lost inside your Wiccan ways… and I have come to the conclusion that the mind that allows itself to forget you is doomed to ignorance without bliss.
You are synonymous with the smell of fire on a winter breeze, and the crunching of leaves beneath the footsteps of a lonely bard. Well rehearsed incantations flutter through your head, and the dust of sacred parchments powders your fingertips. You have the evasive wit of a fox, the mystique of a wolf and the gravity of a raven… When you are silent you have the solemnity of a grave, and when you are outspoken you are blunt like a waterfall’s hiss. The consequences of your existence have a severe impact on my life; without your birth my life would never have been the same. I need you, not as a lover in the traditional sense, but as a portal to a more thorough nourishment of the senses. I am jealous of your deftness in traffic with ghosts, and your audacity in spiritual exploration…. I long to be by your side on those graveyard walks and dark forest outings too bold for the meager spirit, but it is all just a fantasy in more ways than one. May I worship you from afar, and utilize you as a symbol for my high-fevered longing? I promise I won’t interrupt your precious planes of enchantment, though I want to be a part of them so badly…. The least I can do is translate your world into a world of my own.
You will never be true love; you are my obsession, my fascination. My love for you is childish, but grievous, and it rivals the restless longing that calls to the migratory birds when the seasons are in position. I smell the winter winds and wonder where you are, in the same manner that I wonder what archaic poetics decorate your book of spells. The inspiration I crave grows wild in your broom-hazel eyes, and the unique shade of salvation I require resides only in the aura you have created. But if it were possible to cage you, you would wilt upon capture… for you belong among the moonlit reeds where the night sky is your chapel. The wilderness is your only spouse, and I am in no state of mind or soul to compete with that! I am just as content with being blessed with your image as a tool for my mind; may it lead me on to braver pastures long after death’s curtain falls.
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