Last night, I said "good bye".

It wasn't what I wanted,
It seemed our time was through.
His promise, he'd forgotten.
So difficult to do.

I thought it best for both or us,
our hearts and souls, were hurting.
He would now be free of guilt,
And I,.. Could go on living.

We are so very different,
My head is in the clouds,
He lives by clock and calendar.
I have no concept of time.

He hides within his duties.
And I run out to embrace.
He looks outside, with yearning.
I sing, and smile and dance.

He asked if I could teach him, once,
To "Feel Life", in that way.
I had told him that, "Yes I would".
No easy road to take.

He never could get to it,
Though he did seem so sincere
He put off all the lessons,
To escape how they may feel.


I thought he had the courage
To step outside his cover
To take a look inside himself,
And let his feelings surface


I know that I will miss him,
A kind and honest man
I hope one day, he's brave enough
To ignore his written plans

Allow for all the gifts in life
To be seen and then accepted
To one day open up his heart
And "feel" with free abandon.

The final choice, is his alone.
He knows just where I'm at.
If ever, he should find his heart,
And journey his way back

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Last night, I said "good bye".

It wasn't what we wanted.
Our time for now was through
Somday he'll find his courage,
And live his life then too.





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All Rights Reserved
D.Enise

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While Good bye's, are most always hard
Sometimes they are needed.

They do not always mean a door is forever closed.
Sometimes we find ourselves at a place,
that we need some time alone.

It is not easy to look at life from the "outside",
And Just "watch" with Desire..
As a "Spectator"
It takes a lot of energy, to ward off feelings
in order to "stay", on the "outside".
It takes a lot of self "talk, a lot of.. "Denial"
A Safe Place to be.. Or is it ??
One day,.. It could all "catch up"..

And it's not easy to "Live".
Living, takes Risking.
And sometimes Risking takes time.

Just don't let it take to "much" time.
You never know what is passing you by.

Don't live your life by a book you write,
Filled with tasks, and plans.
While it can keep you, from feeling pain..
It will also keep you from feeling
"Love"..and Joy


Living Life, ..
is worth the Risk.