Dear Karen: A Letter To Myself (Bear's Challenge) (Part One)
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Karen Lynn Vidra, The Texas Tornado
Saturday, December 06, 2003
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A letter to myself, as written by me. Done in letter format.
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Saturday, December 6, 2003~
Dear Karen:
Hello! You probably know how you are doing, so I won't take the time to ask; still, I can tell by the pain in your brown eyes that you have a lot of things on your mind.
You are probably wondering if you are worth anything to anyone. Well, I am here to tell you that you ARE! You are worth everything to me, and people are always telling you how much of a good and compassionate person you are! You are also very talented at writing, and you have blessed other people with your writings at Authorsden! (My, but you sure are a prolific writer! 801 stories and nearly 400 poems, plus 50 articles posted at Authorsden?? WOW, that is something that I can't even BEGIN to fathom! You have a gift, and you have so much to offer to other people! You offer them hope and encouragement, even though you are battling chronic illness and depression; that is something to be admired!) You have a twin sister, Karla, who loves you more than words can ever say, and she has always been with you; she is your biggest fan and biggest supporter, and she wishes she could do more for you!
Karla has been through some hard times herself, and she wishes that she could do more for you; she doesn't like to see you unhappy (just as I am well aware that you don't like to see HER unhappy!). She may get on your nerves at times with her bossy nature, but she IS your sister, and she is only looking out for you and your best interest! If she gets on your nerves, don't get angry at her; just walk away, and wait until things blow over; that is what I would do! But you need to build your backbone up; you let people get to you too much, and you shouldn't let things bother you so much. If things get to you, don't hold your anger or frustrations in until you can't take it any more: let your true feelings show, and let it all out! Sure, people may get mad at first, but it's better to get it out right away than to hold it in and risk getting sick!
Karen, I am also going to tell you that I don't understand why you don't think you are pretty. Well, I am here to tell you: you ARE! You have pretty dark brown eyes that sparkle with hope in the midst of despair, and you have pretty, thick, wavy brown hair that people would KILL for! You also have a very cute little perky nose and a pretty smile that lights up your entire face when you smile. I wish you would smile more; you are so pretty when you smile! I know people have been mean to you in the past, calling you ugly and retard, but Karen, you are NOT ugly, and HOW can you be "retarded" when you write from the heart the way you do? Some of your stories have made people CRY, and you have blessed many people with your writings! You have a special God-given gift, and I am sure that the Lord is going to use you in a very powerful way one of these days with your writings! You are NOT stupid, Karen: you are VERY intelligent, and I wish I had HALF the abilities you do! Those who were mean to you in the past missed out on having a good friend in you, and that is THEIR loss, NOT yours! You have NOTHING to feel sorry for when you think of the past; but I still can't understand why you were teased the way were and nothing was done to stop it! If I could have changed the past, believe you me, I would have DONE IT!!
As for your family's treatment of you, they ought to be ashamed. They didn't have to treat you the way they did. They were cruel, insensitive, and overbearing, and it is no wonder you have such a poor self image. How could you have just sat there and not do anything to try to get them to stop? Why didn't you do anything to try to help yourself instead of letting their abuse and cruelty wreck your self image? So you were born too soon, and so you WERE a slow learner. BIG F***ing deal. Oh, if only your family could see you now, writing on the computer, posting 800 stories, with a goal of getting some of your works published! That is a very admirable goal, and I am sure that you will reach your dream one day! I have faith in you, Karen, and you should too! I am sure they would be blown away with some of your writings! I sure am! And so are many others! Don't let your family's cruelty bring you down; you are MUCH better than that, and you DON'T need to fall to their level! GET ON with your life, and DON'T look back; how many times have people told you that?? (Again, you need to build up your backbone!!)
I notice that you write a lot about disability in your stories. That is okay, but I would like you to branch out more, write about other things. I know it is hard when you live with disability every day, but I would like to see you write more about other things, and when you DO write, don't focus so much on the disability: focus more on the CHARACTER first, and THEN the disability. (Have heard Karla tell you that many times!! LOL) But what you HAVE written so far has been incredibly moving, and you have educated many a person with what it means to be disabled and how it is to live with a disability; but you are MORE than your disabilities. You are a PERSON first, and your disability only makes a SMALL portion of who you are! DON'T let your disablility bring you down; just hold your head up high and just keep on doing the best job you possibly can, and prove those naysayers wrong! Yes, you may walk with a crutch, and yes, you may be in pain, and yes, you MAY wear glasses and also have hearing loss, but you have triumphed over adversity in a way that many other people probably never will, and your bravery and courage is nothing short of astounding! You are a Miracle, and always remember that you are PERFECT in God's eyes; and He wants you here for a reason! You nearly didn't survive your first day of life (as did Karla; she is a Miracle, too; and God has big plans for her too!), but here it is, nearly 2004, and you are approaching your 45th birthday in June of 2004!
Whoops! Have seen that you have to go to work in a half hour, so I will continue this tomorrow. Sorry for keeping you! Until tomorrow, remember that you ARE somebody, and you ARE here for a very important reason and that God loves you, no matter WHAT you may be going through! I love you, and I will talk to you tomorrow!
Until then, have a good evening at work, and don't work too hard! (Yeah, I know..."Easier said than done!" LOL)
~Love, Karen Lynn.
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| Reviewed by jacqueline amos |
3/12/2005 |
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| karen you are only human, we all feel sometimes, when we try so hard to delay a message is anyone listening. Karen their is nothing wrong with wanting surport from your brothers and sisters, its call compassion, sometimes we as a people need to consider one another, many have hang ups, when it is so easy to show love, karen validation comes within self, from the first time I met you, I saw a sweet and compassionate person, through my hell you was right their, it will always leave a sweet taste of respect for you. You are loved karen never forget, God loves you, and your writing reflects it. In this world, we fight with Good and Evil, but through the eyes of God, your heart speaks, and the loving hearts listen. God bless you, continue to write, you are one of a kind. I learn one thing from authors den, their are many beautiful people here, but they are many followers also if one don't like something, the others will join in, its call the click, but keep your eyes on the sparrow, and the wings will find its way. I am a true believer, I have grown so much out of my trials and errors on authors den, It has made me strong in many ways, many times I just wanted to give up, I have been blessed to be in the company with great authors, I have also learn that in order to rule one must serve, I must give back, as well as recieve. I never thought I could say that, but I have learned alot from many authors, nevertheless at the time I thought it was bad, but in reality they taught me, if you can stand the fire, get out the kitchen. I love you karen, life lesson, you are a great author. |
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| Reviewed by Robert Sheridan |
11/20/2004 |
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Karen,
A 'mirrored' treat - this required a high-level of thought to which you mastered with perfection ... Bravo, my friend!!
Best wishes,
Robert |
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| Reviewed by Dave Harm |
9/27/2004 |
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Sometimes, we need to remind ourselves how good, talented, and needed we are! Ifelt like I was in the room with the "both" of you! Agreeing with one, while wanting to hug the other. Awesome idea
Dave Harm |
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| Reviewed by Michelle Kidwell Power In The Pen |
12/14/2003 |
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(((((Karen ))))
You are a woman who deserves to be proud your words have touched so many lives, from all around the world, just think you are being read from New Zeland to Jamestown and so many places in between, keep up the great work...
God Bless
Your Friend
And Sister in Christ Jesus
~Michelle~ |
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| Reviewed by Linda Murray |
12/7/2003 |
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Karen,
It is hard to bear ones soul to so many. I'm not sure I could do this. You are a very strong person and comfortable with yourself. You could really teach all of us many things. Thank you for sharing this with us. |
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| Reviewed by Tinka Boukes |
12/7/2003 |
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Excellent reply Karen!!
Love Tinka |
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| Reviewed by jude forese |
12/6/2003 |
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| excellent reply on this challenge ... |
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| Reviewed by Ron (sketchman) Axelson |
12/6/2003 |
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I'm proud of you..
Your friend........Ron |
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| Reviewed by Rebekah Rosie Lang |
12/6/2003 |
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Oh Karen, ONLY words that come to
my mind are WOW and AWESOME! To be able to
SHOW this side of yourself to everyone here
at the Den, you are truly a STRONG SPIRIT
of Christ's Loving Strength! Do not ever,
EVER stop writing!!!!!!!!!!
Love and peace,
Becca |
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| Reviewed by Andre Bendavi ben-YEHU |
12/6/2003 |
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"Dear Karen: A Letter To Myself (Bear's Challenge) (Part One)
"The courage to express ones inner feelings in relation to her/his true reality is one of the most admirable action of a human being.
To write to me talking about ME is the most difficult task one can experience.
I value Your courageous and artistic writing in this particular work delivered today. It made learn, it made me cry and it made me feel proud of Humankind.
I thank You for showing us the way to greatness, and for teaching us how to be real.
May You enjoy a memorable Season.
Gratefully,
Andre Emmanuel Bendavi ben-YEHU |
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| Reviewed by Mr. Ed |
12/6/2003 |
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| What can I add but, Excellent Challenge entry, and Excellent Attitude in this letter, Karen. You Go Girl! Listen to your inner self - it will never let you down. |
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| Reviewed by George Carroll |
12/6/2003 |
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I don't know what else to add, that Kate in her review has already said so eloquently to you except I find you a courageous young woman and I pray your spirits will always remain high through out life and also with Karla. God bless the miracle he has sent us, in you, my sweet one Love and Hugs
George |
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| Reviewed by Karla Dorman, The StormSpinner |
12/6/2003 |
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(((karen)))
you can do anything you set your mind to do
and you can do anything through Christ, who strengthens you
never forget that...
you have been, and are, indeed, my biggest blessing. you bless others through your heart-touching stories of unconditional love and acceptance. BRAVA, dear twin sister!
((((((HUGS)))))) and never forget i love you!
karla. :)
powerful, strong write! BRAVA! |
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| Reviewed by Kate Clifford |
12/6/2003 |
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| I feel blessed to be lucky enough to read these words from such a strong person. You are special. I know what the teasing is like. Its hard. I would of prefered the stone to be thrown at me then having to deal with the horrible words that people say. You do have a lot to be proud of. You are one of the most loving people I have meet here at AD. Your stories touch me deeply and I do hope your getting them to magazines and publishers. Your words inspire many. I'll be looking forward to seeing your writing as you branch out. I too like to encourage all authors to try different types of writing. It helps when you focus in on the writings that you are most natural at. I am looking forward to reading more about your heart and soul. And Karen you are beautiful in all respects. |
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| Reviewed by E T Waldron |
12/6/2003 |
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| Karen, I hope you listen to the letter and have more confidence in the fact that you are gifted , and all who know you here admire and love your work, your wonderful attitude, and your compassionate heart. So heed what was written;-)!Splendid write! |
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| Reviewed by The Bear Paw |
12/6/2003 |
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Karen, I wish there were words to say how touched I am! You are a true blessing and have surpassed this "letter to self" far beyond my imagine... you are a warrior woman, stay strong.... love and hugs to you....
In Spirit,
Bear |
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