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Filled with such disgust
I can not find the words
To build back the trust
From me that was lured
Out into the daylight
Fed upon by you
This is wrong, not right
I don't care what with it you do
Take your sadness and charm
That you think you've had
Take it all and the harm
You always think is so bad
That penetrates your mind
That burdens down your heart
In me you'll never find
What's torn yours apart
This is not my problem
This is not my fault
This is not because of them
Or the realities locked in my vault
Take away your sadness
Take away your pain
In me you'll find such madness
Where there is little left to gain
Hope or understanding
By the likes of you
Often times demanding
I can't stand the things you do
Leave me here to rot
Leave me here clean
I will not be what I am not
You never knew what that'd mean
Leave me here alone
Though alone I never am
Take your raw bone
And try to understand
That the underdogs been fed
The underdog is free
Not a sorrow you have bled
Will ever escape me
I remember the trial and error
That this relationship had over me
Living in unspoken terror
You always claimed you'd see
The pain in my eyes
The sadness in my words
Such things you now despise
Are forever left unheard
I don't care what you do
With what you think you know
I am more than through
And with these words I show
My regret and my hope
That you'll leave me be
Able now to cope
For I am truly free
From the likes of you
Who have fed on my sweet ways
Because of the things I'd do
To keep you here to stay
As my friend
As my foe
In the end
This I know
That you were a liar true
You were a sinners saint
You were just being you
And my heart you did taint
I have no time for explainations
Of how my lifes been led
Without hesitation
Your hungry heart I fed
I gave away my all
I gave to you my best
And in the end took the fall
Just like all the rest
Be who you are
Be free at best
Take not a look at my scar
Forget the whole test
This is not a game
This is not a joke
This is so very lame
Makes me want to choke
Choking on raw words
Scribbled on a screen
From one who left unheard
Unheard and unseen
For a long enough to hurt me
For a long enough time to burn
For a long enough time for me to see
This feeling is rightfully earned
You think you know who this is about
You think you know me true
From every word I'd shout
Towards him or her or you
Take my words lightly
Like a grain of sand
Hold on to them tightly
Claim to understand
Take my words to heart
Let them bleed in you
Tear them all apart
And claim you always knew
That I would do this to you
That I would do this to them
Though you always knew
I was but a gem
To be had and played with
Admired from afar
I have not a gift
To set into your jar
Count your pennies
One, two, three
I have so many
That I gave for free
Not a one amounted
To more than it was worth
My soul has been mounted
On a mantel from birth
Hanging like an ornament
Dangling in the light
Dealing with such torment
You always thought was alright
You do not know me
YOu don't know a thing
You only know what you see
And claim to feel as a sting
A pain in your ass
An itch in your ear
Your charitable gifts I pass
As I wipe but a single tear
Donations please
Donations here
On your knees
You pray with fear
You have your God and your Lord
I have my light and my life
You carry a heavy sword
I carry mine in strife
You stand with a shield
I stand with a feather
To everything you yield
As I bend with the weather
Between a rock and hard place
Sand and stone
My feelings you've defaced
As I've dealt with them alone
Don't call on me
Don't say a thing
You will never see
What you chaos brings
I have my own life to lead
You have yours to kill
I have mouths to feed
You have yours to heel
Good night
Good day
You'll be alright
As will I someday
Move on
Let go
It's done
I have nothing more to show
Or to say
Or to do
I'll have my way
And so will you
Take it easy
Grin, laugh, smile
Leave me to be
Let me have my style
I didn't bring you down
With things you didn't need
You let yourself drown
In what you thought was greed
If you think that of me
Then stop trying
Set yourself free
From your empty crying
We are not friends
But you are not nessecarily my foe
This is the end
Just so you know