OK first let's talk about the dream.  You people ever have this strange dream about not completing school and going to school with kids who are much younger than you?  Perhaps it's elementary school, perhaps it's high school, perhaps it's college, perhaps it's graduate school.  You're like living in dormitories with kids who are a lot younger than you and also that 'degree' just seems to take forever.  You've got years and years ahead of you before you finish that degree, it just seems like an impossible goal. It's starting to 'feel' like a nightmare and then all of a sudden you wake up and are glad it's only a dream.

ANYWAYS this is the dream I had last night.  I'm in my mid twenties but it doesn't matter I'm back at prestigious Quincy living in a dormitory with freshmen who are like seven or eight years younger and Omigosh I'm taking these classes and then I drop them because they're too hard and I realize I'm going to be at this school like forever.  I'm even experiencing GOING TO THE CAFETERIA WITH THESE KIDS AND THE CAFETERIA LOOKS EXACTLY THE SAME AS I REMEMBER IT.  Now other people told me they have this same exact dream.  Marcus says he's back at UCSB or Chapman and he's like an 'eternal junior' who never makes it to being a senior and he's going to the cafeteria with kids HIS SON'S OR DAUGHTER'S AGE.   Helos also tells me that sometimes he has dreams that he was still attending his prestigious 'space academy' back on Zatoris.  So these dreams happen to people all over the universe. 

SO ANYWAYS I'm sitting in my bed half awake and wishing I could go back to this dream so I could finish my degree but of course I have to get up and go to this waitress job that I absolutely hate but then with the true unemployment rate being close to 20% I shouldn't compain at least I have a job so................

The next thing I know I hear  like a strange feminine voice in my head.

'The dream represents your unfulfilled goals.''

'What in heavens name is that?'  I'm thinking to myself. ' It must be my inagination.'  But then I hear it again.

'The dream represents your unfulfilled goals.'

"WHO ARE YOU?"  I yell.  "ARE YOU SOME KIND OF GHOST?"

'I am your 'Guide.'  Close your  eyes so that you may see me.'

I close my eyes and OMIGOSH I SEE THESE ATTRACTIVE MIDDLE AGED WOMAN, SHE LOOKS A BIT LIKE ALOCKI MY ALIEN FRIEND. 

"What do you mean you're my Guide, are you sent to me from like above?"  I whisper quietly because I don't want Marissa my roommate to you know wake up and think I'm talking to myself.

'Yes the leaders assign all people Guides.  Anyways the dream you just had represent your unfullfilled goals.  You live in a world of peaks of valleys Fifi.  There are goals in your life and you hope to reach them. That's why we give you dreams just like the one you have.  Life is basically trying to reach these unfullfilled goals.  Just like a mountaineer who wants to climb the highest mountain.  He sees the mountain and he wants to conquer it.'

"So me trying to finish this 'degree' in this dream is like fullfilling a real life goal like becoming.....a rich and famous actress which I know I will someday become?"

'Yes but you must not focus your concerns on material things such as money.  The leaders look down at the ones who are selfish and only care about themselves while living on this Earth.  It will be easier for  them when they make a decision on where their 'next life' will be.  Perhaps you will win an audition to perform as an actress with a small theaterical comnpany, perhaps you may not be 'rich and famous' but you will perform for many people in small 'dinner theaters' and you will receive 'rave reviews' from the drama critics.  Fifi 'achievement' and 'success' do not neccsessarily mean making a lot of money.  Again the ones who have had 'career and financial success' while living on this Earth and cares about nobody but themselves or  their immediate families are frowned upon by the leaders.  In these dreams have you perhaps been asked perhaps to help other people?'

'I believe......in this last dream.....I was like.....turtoring students....or something like that."

'And in real life have people asked you for some help, say for a few dollars so they can buy some food?'

I sighed...."Yes I meet a lot of those people especially around the restaraunt where I work.  And yes a lot of times I just walk past them while they're begging me for a few bucks.   But I'm sorry 'Guide,' I know times are tough but some of those people look like they have never shaved or showered their in entire life and I don't believe they need the money for 'food.'  They need a few extra bucks so they can go to the liquer store.  Even if jobs were plentiful these people really don't look like they would care to put in a hard days work.  Now a fella who is clean shaven and wears a suit and a tie or lady who is well dressed...well I wouldn't even hesitate to give him or her a few bucks...I know they're really looking for a job."

'OK....... Fifi.....You are very entertaining.....I know deep inside you have a good heart...So now you can see the source of the dream you just had.'

"Omigosh Guide I'm just glad to talk you.  And please give me some brownie points to the leaders when the 'time comes.'  If I make a lot of money as famous Hollywood actress I'll give like 80 percent of the money to charities...I can still live in a small apartment and drive a beat up old  pickup truck.  All I want to do is reach my goal.....reach my goal. "

Yes if you live an overall fruitful and successful life when 'the time comes 'I will give a strong 'recommendation' to the leaders but remember my reccomendation will be up to and how well you perform here on 'The Earth Plane....' Her voice trailed off.

Later on I'm sitting in a coffee shop talking to my scientific friend Dick and of course I get the expected response from MR AETHEIST...FROM MR NATURE....

Dick smiles at me and says, "Fifi you've got these amazing organs in your skull called the 'cerebral cortex, the hippocamus.  The neurons in these organs imprint 'life esperiences' and they became part of your memory.  Your cortex and hippocamus are active when you sleep and these imprinted life experiences are shown back to you in pictures, your dreams.  It's obvious that the struggles and frustrations you've gone as an actress thru triggers a similiar type expereince in the past in your hippocamus when you sleep.  Obviously this would be you working hard to get a degree from a top liberal arts college.  I've had similar dreams about going back to Oxford"  He smirked at me and took a sip of his latte coffee.    "Any psychologist would tell you the same thing."

"Yeah will how about the lady that I talked to after I woke up."

Dick shook his head and smiled.  "FIFI YOU'VE GOT AN ACTIVE IMAGINATION, AN ACTIVE RIGHT CEREBRUM, JUST LIKE THE PEOPLE WHO WROTE THE BIBLE AND ALL THESE OTHER RELIGIOUS BOOKS. You've got a strong moral concious and imagined you saw some mystical woman who told you should do right to other people and that would you lead you to some perfect well after we leave this 'Good Old Earth.'  Fifi I'm not going to go against your beliefs but i will stick with my beliefs.  We live in a world of random processes, no guiding forces or any like that.  I'm sorry dear I've gotta go know, I'm due in court.  I'm trying to lower alimony payments to my ex wife.  Perhaps my ex wife's 'Guide' will enter her dream and give her the name and phone number of a wealthy man so I don't have to pay her any more alimony.  Cheers......"

"OH REAL FUNNY MR NONBELIEVER." I shot back at Dick as he left.  "MAYBE HER GUIDE WILL GET HER TO ASK FOR MORE...."

I'M SORRY I DON'T CARE WHAT DICK SAYS I KNOW MY GUIDE WAS REAL AND THAT DREAM WAS PLANTED IN ME AND I WILL BE A MISS GOODY TWO SHOES AS LONG AS LIVE AND NEVE THE TWAIN SHALL MEET!