Hey Holly

What do you think of the road trip?

I didn't think so many people could live in a space this small

this is not a good way to get to know your new family, especially pretty much ALL of them

yeah they can but it must be a tight squeeze just think in less than twenty four hours and you will be in Nashville

Yeah

How's Aunt Louisa doing?

she's not doing well at all

I was afraid of that

her condition is starting to effect her arms

yeah my Mom told me

I hate to see this happening to her, my Aunt is so full of life

and it is really getting to her, mentally as well

She is my Mamma's identical twin I didn't know if you knew that

she has been very quiet and withdrawn most of the trip

I know

I have never met your mother, so I didn't know

Oh Duh

it is okay

you will see how much a like they look tomorrow night

btw, I am talking to you on the new laptop your aunt bought me

thats awesome

I know you are going to love Aunt Kendra

I have never had a new computer, I was always given my bother's hand me downs

Wow Aunt Kendra and Mike will spoil you

I am still quite nervous and feel out of place in this family.

Aunt Kendra doesnt stop she is blowing that whole I am a helpless disabled person out of the water, and I am glad for that

yes, she does

You will get use to them, I know they already love you

they seem to adore me, everyone dotes on me

I just wish I didn't feel so ill at ease

I feel bad for not trusting them yet

they understand Holly, Missy was once scared like you, but seeing her now you would never know

I can tell they want me to badly

I know they do

and the husband, can't rememger his name, really makes me uncomfortable, only b.c of my past

Mike?

He's a great guy he wouldn’t hurt a fly

yeah, I think that is it

what about my Daddy, what do you think of him?

I am uncomfortable around all men, because of my past

they intimidate me, even though they are not trying to

I am sorry about that, My Daddy is awesome though

he seems very quiet and reserved

he is

But if someone messes with his family and friends you better watch out

and keeps his distance b.c he can tell I am uncomfortable

Yeah he was the same way with Susie, but even Susie got used to him

She actually started calling him Uncle

I can tell he is protective, when we stopped to get gas, some teen boys were picking on me, and he made them go away and leave me alone

yeah Daddy is great like that

This is our last night to talk online like this you know?

my parents would have said it was my own fault I was being picked on

Tomorrow night you will be here with us

not forever,

if you move to Tennessee as I have heard you might

not forever but you guys are staying until after the country music festival

yeah we are

And I think Aunt Louisa is too

Mom is really scared for her

and the kids

your aunt Kendra is really torn up about that, even though she won't say so

yeah

I heard her talking on the phone to someone last night

but please don't tell anyone I told you

I know but Mom is doing it because fo the hospital closing where we live

I knew that Aunt Kendra was talking to Mom

ok, I wasn't sure if you knew and I don't want to be a trouble maker

I'm scared, to be honest

who knows maybe you will end up moving

but I am afraid of somehow messing up what I have here and having it all taken away again and ending up who knows where

I try my hardest to always be on my best behavior so your aunt will not get upset w. me

and I try to never say anything even if I am uncomfortable w. something

You will be fine

I wonder about that sometimes

By the way I have some news for you, but you have to promise not to tell anyone, its supposed to be a surprise but I thought you might like to hear it anyway

Do you want me to tell you now or do you want to wait?

ok, I won't tell a soul

tell me!

Aunt Kendra Expedidated the adoption process in a few weeks you will officially be her daughter

And your sister and brother are going to meet us in Nashville, there Temp Foster Family agreed to go all the way to Nashville so you guys could be together again

that's awesome

I thought you would like to hear that

I have not seen Hope or Hunter since I arrived

and I miss them so much

They are here with us, there foster parents dropped them off tonight and are staying in a hotel, the couple they are with are great

wow

they have five children all but one adopted

my family was almost that large

four children

I know

Aunt Kendra's family is huge, but they seem small when you put them next to the Sandusky's

the Sandusky's?

My boyfriend Johnny's family

oh, will I be meeting them too?

yeah

Johnny and Ronee will be here tomorrow when you arrive, there Mom agreed this one time, eventhough its a school night, and the rest you will get to meet too, but Louie is doing it a few at a time so you arent overwhelmed

I'm already overwhelmed

I know

I get sick to my stomach every time I think about it

I know you do

I think she is wondering if this is too much too soon for me

Is Aunt Kendra changing your views on how to perceive someone with a disability

She probably is, but she wanted to take this trip because in a few months many of the kids are going to be leaving for college

I've never had a distorted view of people with disabilites, Hope (my sister) is deaf.

I am sorry that came out wrong

and we just found out Hunter is autistic

Wow

but she is very inspirational, I must say that

Thats what I meant

and Spunky

very

and she doesn't take anything from her kids

After the convo Kia will be writing

No she doesnt

And she doesnt make excuses either, I am sure she made sure you all found a church a long the way to go to, she is a very devout Christian

I'm actually somewhat afraid of her, afraid I will do something wrong and she will send me away

She has and never will do that

never?

Have you got to get to know Anna Grace

Never

a little, to be honest, I am still trying to learn everyone's names

Anna Grace lost both of her legs in her native country of Africa

Sierra Leone I believe

I think I remember hearing someone say that

she's my bunk mate on this trip, actually

kewl

she helped me alot after I faced my amputations

she seems amazing

Mom is coming in I can hear her now, she's going to want me in bed in a few I have an appt in the morning

She is

ok, I hope it goes well for you

very smart, they may graduate her next year, and she will barely be fourteen thats how intelligent she is

wow, that would be amazing

yeah

well Mom said I need to go to bed, I will see you tomorrow night, and she said to let you know she is looking forward to knowing you and she is glad she will soon be having a new niece

I will talk to you tomorrow okay?