Not this times Around is about what I have been through and How People see me as a person, but they are not the ones that hold my future in there hands.

Some people look at me and all they see is this heavy set woman, but they do not know what I have been through. They do not know how many times I have cried myself to sleep. They have no clue as to what my mind thinks day in and day out. Some people see the way I dress and they judge me. Most people see the way I carry myself and they turn there nose up at me. Then there are those that just look and then talk and make up there own ideas as to who I am and what I am going through. They claim to have walked in my shows, but I can look them in the eye and see that they are fake. They always feel so sorry for me, and they take pity on me, but that is not what I want, Pity is for those that lack understanding. Feeling sorry for me oh no that is for those who really do not care or give a rats you know what about me. And to judge me is the worse thing of all. God has never once judged me, but I can say that he forgave me and he loves me. Going through most of the hard times is so important to me as they have taught me to be strong and to hold on to my trust in God. This is my story.