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What if your ex-girlfriend is a heroin addicted hooker who needs help with a dead body?
Struggling thriller writer Kevin Turner just received a panicked call from his ex-girlfriend Tina, a self-proclaimed clairvoyant prostitute. One of her clients, the mayor’s married son, died in her bed and she needs Kevin’s help to dispose of the body. As if Kevin doesn’t have enough problems. His current girlfriend is the spouse of the gay woman who signs his meager paycheck, his sixth credit card has hit its limit, he received word that his eight-month wait for his second advance check was being withheld by Gotham Publishing until he made the absurd changes in his manuscript that they wanted, and he just discovered his recently deceased father, who Tina claims she’s in contact with, owes ten grand from an internet gambling debt, which Kevin would now have to figure a way to pay. When Kevin discovers Tina’s psychotic brother has chopped up the body, and the police are finding the pieces spread across the suburbs, it sets off a chain of events more bizarre and horrifying than the plot of one of Kevin’s own novels.
How it all began
“Spirits…” Tina said, one night while we were in bed and after I’d noticed the small bottle of Prozac she kept on the bureau still contained all its pills. “…are starved for information about the living. That’s why they talk to me. Not to tell me things about the afterlife but for me to tell them things about mortal life. They miss it, as you can imagine. Death is quite boring compared to the stimuli of existence.”
I laid there staring at the ceiling wondering how I ever got involved with a woman like her. How much my life had changed since we’d met.
Tina had a tough life. When she was eleven, her dad strangled her mom as they argued over the answer to one of the game show, Who wants to be a Millionaire’s questions. As Tina and her brother, Ritchie looked on, her dad then got his pistol and shot himself in the head.
For months after, she and Ritchie bounced around different state orphanages, finally ending up in foster care. Her foster parents had problems of their own, alcohol and all kinds of the craziness associated with it. They were poor and strict, and mainly housed Tina and Ritchie because the state paid $335 a month in support for each of them.
By age fifteen, Tina had developed a nasty drug habit and ran away to live on the street. Prostitution, stripping, dealing drugs, it was the only way she could afford three bags of heroin a day. Eventually, she was arrested and brought back to her foster parents who quickly shuffled her away to a mental hospital because the state wouldn’t pay for a detox center.
Ritchie left the foster house the day he turned eighteen and joined the marines. He returned home after three years of intense fighting in Iraq; being dishonorably discharged for allegedly killing and mutilating a family of Kurds. He quickly became the neighborhood drug kingpin. The times Tina and I visited him he talked how the war was his life and when he got back his life became the war. It still raged within him.
When I met Tina she’d been off drugs for nearly three months. She was living in a dingy hotel room above a Chinese restaurant and dancing topless at a local dive called Double Visions. I’d just published my first novel and had used the entire advance on a down payment for a small rancher in the suburbs with nearly three acres of wooded land. I was celebrating the purchase with a night out with the guys and had paid Tina for a lap dance. It was an unconventional way to get to know each other but the attraction between us was mutual and electrifying. That night I had the best sex of my life in my new house, and the next day I asked her to move in with me.
I was in love.
A month into our relationship, Tina got a call from social services that her foster parents had been killed in horrible automobile accident and that she and Ritchie were the sole beneficiaries of their small estate. Tina took her share of the money, moved out of my place, and bought a duplex in a semi-upscale neighborhood a few miles outside of Philadelphia. She told me she wanted to live on her own for a while even if we did end up moving back in together. I hated the thought of her not being with me, but accepted the fact that she wanted her own space.
Ritchie took up residence in their foster parent’s house and turned it into Grand Central Station for his drug dealing network.
Four months into our relationship, is when I noticed Tina had stopped taking her medication. Her body was in picturesque health but her mind was a shattered mess. Her mental illness was frightening. I’d wake up at her house in the middle of the night to the sound of her blabbering incoherently to the ceiling, drool leaking from the side of her mouth, eyes wrapped up in her sockets like a woman possessed.
She told me two spirits wanted to live through her, burlesque dancers from the 1920’s who were raped and killed by a serial murderer. These spirits wanted her to go back to stripping at the club so they could re-experience the excitement that was taken from them.
I forbade it, though my novel had flopped terribly, barely earning back its advance, and my financial situation was in no state to support two households. The tiny articles I wrote in the garden section of the local newspaper for $125 bucks a week paid my basics. But that’s it.
A few nights later, I discovered to my horror that Tina had begun hooking again and one of her clients was the principle of a local high school. She and I had a tremendous fight and said horrible things to each other, words once spoken that we could never take back. And just like that our golden balloon of love popped.
We talked one more time after that heart-wrenching night, on the telephone. I warned that she was heading for trouble screwing around with prominent, married men; but she’d brushed off my concerns, chiding; “You’re just jealous.”
I assured her I was not, wished her well, and said goodbye. It was painful, but in my mind she was out of my life forever.
Deleted from the contacts list in my cell phone.
Then tonight’s frantic call. “Lance Starkey’s dead! Lance Starkey’s dead! Please come over!”
The sheer unexpectedness of Tina’s shrill, near hysterical voice rattled me into action. Without thinking about what I was doing, I left Jen asleep in my bed, threw on my jacket, hopped into my 1987 Nissan Sentra, and cruised down I-95 toward the Manayunk section of Philadelphia. Something I had sworn I would never do again.
Concern. Hope. Dread. Guilt. Love?
Emotions poured through me as I pulled off the interstate, turned onto POLK STREET, and headed into Tina’s development. I spotted a blue Jaguar XJS parked alongside the alley. I stopped in front of her house, breathed a deep sigh, and stared at her front door.
Do I really need another complication in my life?
I was already having an affair with the married, bi-sexual spouse of the gay woman who signed my meager paycheck. My sixth credit card had hit its limit. I received word that my eight-month wait for my second advance check was being withheld by Gotham Publishing until I made the absurd changes they wanted in my second manuscript. And I’d just discovered my recently deceased father owed ten grand from an internet gambling debt, which I’d now have to figure a way to pay.
Craving for a cigarette prickled through me. I reached into the ashtray and fished an old butt from the disgusting mishmash of filters, chewed nicotine gum, and ashes. The butt looked like a twisted white worm. I lit the frayed end and dragged deep; my first drag in a week. I held the smoke and felt the dizzying rush of nicotine jet through my system and relax my state of mind.
I shut off the ignition and listened to the plinking of the cooling engine. The September night was black and moonless and tinged with a winter-like chill.
“Kevin!” a voice called.
I turned my head.
It took a moment for my eyes to grow accustom to the dim glow of the porch light. When they did, I saw Tina’s slender figure wearing just her underwear. Her hourglass hips curved underneath the fabric of her white panties. Her breasts swelled against her bra. Corkscrews of golden hair rippled in disarray down her shoulders and over her petite, heart-shaped face.
My stomach somersaulted. I’d forgotten how beautiful she was.
She stepped toward me.
She looked worried.
She looked vulnerable.
She looked like a toy built for sex.
Do I really need another complication in my life?
I crushed the butt, opened the door, and unfolded from my car; feeling as if I were about to get involved in something that could possibly ruin me.
* * *
Tina ran up and embraced me the way a child embraces a parent coming to pick them up after spending a long summer away at camp; a tight, clinging squeeze. Her perfume hit my nose like a soft wind. The warmth of her body consumed my apprehensions. We stood like that for a long moment; the awkward silence and unspoken tensions of ex-lovers meeting after a long time apart.
She released and stepped back. Anxiety showed in the wideness of her eyes.
“Thank God you’re here! I didn’t know who else to call!”
“Where’s your clothes?” I asked, and took off my jacket to give to her.
“Oh, Jesus!” She pursed her lips and rubbed her arms. “I’m so frazzled. I ran out as soon as I saw your car pull up. I’m surprised you came.”
“Me too. Guess I’m just a nice guy.”
She draped my jacket over her shoulders, and shivered.
“So, what happened?”
“I don’t know. One minute I was um… you know, doing what I do, and the next Lance Starkey lets out this little gasp… and then, that’s it. He stops moving. I checked his chest and he wasn’t breathing. What am I going to do? It’s Lance Starkey! I’m in so much trouble!”
“Calm down,” I said. “Were you doing anything illegal?”
“You mean like drugs?” She turned her arms underside up to expose the pale, delicate flesh. “Of course not! I’ve been clean for almost two years!”
“He probably had a heart attack, then,” I said flatly. “Don’t worry about it. It’s not your fault.”
“It doesn’t matter what the cause! Don’t you get it? I can see the headline now; Son of Mayor Gerald Starkey found dead in the bed of a hooker. I can’t handle that kind of publicity! I’ve gotta get him out of here! I’ve gotta get him out of here now!”
I clasped her shoulders. “You need to calm down. This isn’t a big a deal. People die from heart attacks every day. Everything’ll be fine.”
She bit her lower lip.
“Trust me. The mayor doesn’t know who you are or what you do. He’ll be so embarrassed by his son’s affair that he’ll keep the whole story hush. You’ll see. Now, call an ambulance and when the paramedics get here pretend like you actually really cared about the guy.”
She snickered at my sarcasm.
“There’s something more,” she said. “Starkey’s spirit spoke to me right after he died. I’m not sure, but I think it has something to do with your father.”
I let go of her shoulders and took a step back. “You’re off your medication, aren’t you? You only speak with spirits when you’re off your medication.”
“The meds don’t do shit!” she snapped, and started up the walkway.
“Tina, we’ve been through this a hundred times. You’ve gotta stay on your meds. You can’t go off them on your own. You’re gonna end up running screaming through the parking lot.”
“Ha. Ha. Very funny. Look Kevin, thanks for coming and all, but you’re not my doctor, okay? You’re not my boyfriend anymore either. So shut it! The meds make me tired. They make my head fuzzy. I don’t like them. And if I don’t like something, I don’t do it!”
I shrugged. “You’re absolutely right. I’m not your boyfriend or your doctor. I don’t know what I’m doing here. I’ll wait with you until the ambulance comes and then I’m gone.”
We stepped to the door. I reached out and jiggled the handle.
“It’s locked,” I said, and twisted again for certainty.
“Locked?” Her shocked expression caught the porch light. “It can’t be!”
“Shit! I left the key inside!”
“Any of your neighbors have a spare?”
She crossed her arms and huddled my coat around her. “My neighbors abhor me.”
“I’ll call a locksmith? I have my cell.”
“No. Just break the window above the lock. Ritchie got me in that way before.”
“Why not call a locksmith? It won’t take long.”
“There’s a dead body in the house! Break the window please!”
I straightened my shoulders. “Okay.”
I turned my attention to the four small windowpanes rising vertically above the door handle.
“You got a brick?”
“What do you think? Use your elbow! Bunch up your shirt sleeve and smash it. That’s how Ritchie did it.”
I did as she said and slammed my elbow against the pane. It bounced off.
“Harder,” she urged. “I’m freezing!”
I did it again with the same result.
“What is this?” I asked. “Bullet-proof glass?”
“C’mon,” she replied. “Put some muscle into it. Ritchie did it with one blow.”
I looked at her; so vulnerable, nearly nude, and wearing my jacket. Desire fired and flowed through my veins. I fought against my passion for her. Thought about the times she lied to me and the pain of discovering the truth of what was going on; the betrayal, the absolute hate of deceit.
I whipped my elbow and smashed with all my might. Simultaneously, I heard the tinkling of falling glass and felt a stinging burn along my forearm.
“Dammit!” I grabbed where the pain came.
Warm blood dribbled down and wetted between my fingers. “Feels it.”
“Unlock the door,” she said. “I’ll take a look inside.”
I reached through the pane, careful not to brush against the toothy shards, flicked the lock, and opened the door. The house was as I remembered, spacious and clean, with large comfortable furniture and the perfect amount of lighting. Plastic plants interspersed with live ones hung from the windows. A large oriental rug covered half the carpeted floor. Pictures of her and Ritchie as kids adorned the walls. I noticed a picture of me.
She went quickly to the bathroom and came out wearing a pink robe and carrying a packet of gauze and bandage tape.
“Let me see,” she said.
Her hand reached out and sought my arm. I unbuttoned my shirt and peeled the sticky, saturated fabric from the wound. Blood dripped to the floor and into the carpet.
“It’s pretty deep,” she said, and compressed a wad of bandages. I bit my lip against the pain. “You should get it stitched.”
“I don’t have health insurance.”
“I’ll pay the bill.”
I shook my head. “I don’t want your money.”
She shrugged. “Suit yourself. But there’s gonna be a nasty scar.”
I pulled the bandages away to see about the bleeding and unintentionally started a new flow. Bright red drops splattered onto the carpet. Tina reached for more gauze and taped a fresh wad to my skin.
“How’s that feel?” she asked, as she finished her patch job.
I flexed, stretched against the pain, and massaged the area around the wound. “Pretty good.”
She walked to a cabinet, took out a wine glass and an opener, and uncorked a bottle of merlot. Her hand shook a little as she poured the liquid nearly to the rim.
“Where’s Starkey?” I asked.
“In the festivity room,” she replied, and downed half the glass in a single guzzle. “Where else.”
My stomach curled at the thought. The festivity room was a converted walk-in closet that had become Tina’s sex room. It was where her clients got to fulfill their perverted fantasies and do things to her that they were afraid to do, or ask of, their girlfriends or wives. Her clients weren’t street bums or drug addicts. These men lived respectable lives, had families, and held six-figure-a-year jobs. These men had it all. I never understood why they risked so much for anonymous sex. But then again, looking at Tina, I could reason.
I stepped around the entertainment center I’d bought for her twenty-third birthday and wandered down the hallway to the closed door beside the bathroom. Palm sweaty, I turned the knob and eased open the door. Light from the hallway washed over me and played across the dingy space. My nose wrinkled at the thick odors of sweat and perfume. I stayed back. The room was very warm, bordering on hot. Pornographic material plastered the walls. A chest full of adult pleasure toys was in the corner. Lying across the stained single mattress I caught sight of a shirtless figure lying on his back with the lower half of his body twisted up in the sheet. His eyes were open and staring at the ceiling. His skin was the color of milk.
Tina came up behind me with her wine glass refilled. “So, what do you think?”
I closed the door. “I think we’d better call that ambulance.”
“Do we have to do it now?” she asked, and smoothed her robe. “I don’t want to deal with all the activity right now. I’m still thinking maybe we could move him to another place, like the back of a parking lot or something and then make an anonymous call.”
“You can’t tamper with a dead body! That’s real trouble if you get caught!”
She drank thirstily and then wiped her lips with the back of her hand. “I can’t believe this happened. Why couldn’t his wife have found him in his own bed? Why’d he have to die on me?”
I looked away. “How did you get involved with Starkey in the first place?”
She sighed. “We met a few weeks ago at a fundraiser. Believe it or not, I was escorting another man at the time, but Starkey and I talked, and I informed him of my line of work and gave him my number. He called a few days later. I’ve been servicing him pretty regularly since then. Straight sex every time. Poor guy is too guilt-ridden about cheating on his wife to ask for anything kinky. I’d always thought of him as easy money…” She gripped her glass and took a swallow. “But now this. If cops start poking their heads around here they’re gonna make me the scapegoat for the investigation, you’ll see. Somehow I’ll be blamed for his death. They’ll make him into a hero and me a murderer.”
“They won’t,” I assured her. “Not if you call the ambulance right now.”
She drained the wine, stared at the empty wine glass a moment, and then went fetching more. I turned around and zeroed in on the front door, thinking I should get the hell out of there.
“I’m gonna call Ritchie,” she said from the kitchen. “He’ll take care of this. The cops’ll find Starkey behind an adult bookstore or something. The depravity of the scene will keep the story from the press and the investigation to a minimum.”
“Don’t be stupid!” I replied, and walked toward her voice. “Your brother’s a drug-addicted psychopath who’s intoxicated every waking moment of the day! I’ll call an ambulance like a normal, ordinary human being. Nothing’s going to happen to you even if the police get involved. Having sex isn’t a crime. And neither is having an affair. No one knows he…” I hesitated as the reality of the situation pricked my insides. “Was paying you.”
She sailed from the kitchen looking even more alluring with a perceptible alcohol flush pinking her cheeks.
“Married men don’t withdraw a thousand bucks from their bank accounts every three or four days without someone finding out about it,” she replied. “Investigators will put two and two together and then come knocking on my door.”
“Don’t call Ritchie!” I reaffirmed. “He’ll make it worse!”
“Maybe you’re right,” she said, and relaxed her expression. “Maybe I am overreacting.” She lowered her glass and reached for a cigarette. “But can we wait until morning to call the ambulance? I’m really tired.”
“That’s not a good idea,” I said. “We should take care of this now.”
“Please,” she whined and hiccupped, then tinked her fingernails against the glass. “I really don’t want to deal with this right now. I’ll just tell the paramedics he was like this when I woke up.”
I sighed, feeling a weird, creepy sensation at what I was about to say. Tina’s beauty had so much influence over me it warped my sense of better judgment. Way too much influence.
“Do what you want,” I said. “I’m not involved.”
Relief shone in her smile. “How’s your arm?”
“I think the bleeding’s slowing down. No stitches needed.”
I crossed toward the front door and picked up a few of the larger shards of broken glass. Dark red spots of my blood stained the carpet.
“You got any cardboard?” I said. “I’ll tape this window before I go.”
“You can tear off a piece from that box beside the closet.” She looked to the ceiling. “What about Starkey’s spirit?” she said, in a near whisper. “And that warning?”
I camouflaged my feelings of unease, tore off a cardboard panel, and used the bandage tape to temporarily seal the broken window.
I eased up and walked into the bathroom. “Are the bandages still in the cabinet? I’m gonna change this before I go.”
“They’re in the drawer under the sink.”
I washed the blood off my hands and splashed cold water onto my face. I pulled open the drawer: deodorant, tampons, Vaseline, joy jelly, large box of condoms, vibrator, my old toothbrush… bandages.
I took the bandages, closed the drawer, and caught sight of my own features in the mirror. I shuddered. My eyes were bland and puffy from accumulated lack of sleep; my cheeks bloated and rashed from the constant consummation of ninety-nine cent value food. Balding slightly at the crown at twenty-eight, the rest of my hair was a brown nest of split-ends and tangles from using cheap shampoo to save a few bucks.
I ventured back into the living room. Tina was freshly perfumed. She had pulled out the sofa bed and thrown a quilt over the mattress. She slid under the cover, propped her head with two pillows, unhooked her bra, and exposed her breasts.
Heat rose all over my body.
“I should go,” I said, and my voice cracked as I concentrated on keeping my eyes steadfast on her face, though it was a battle.
She met my gaze squarely.
“You’re gonna drive forty-five minutes at four in the morning to avoid sleeping with me?” She patted the mattress and ended with a scratch. “Come on,” she said, and looked down at her breasts. “Whatcha afraid of? These girls don’t bite.”
Lust tore through my system. I thought about Jen asleep in my bed and what she would think when she awoke and I wasn’t in it… again.
“You’re drunk,” I said.
“So… I don’t think this is a good idea.”
She rolled her eyes.
“Okay, Pope Benedict,” she said, and shook her breasts back into her bra and snapped it. “I’m not gonna beg! You have a good night, Kevin. Thanks for stopping by.”
She doused the light and yanked the cover to her neck.
I stood a moment, dreading the drive, feeling my muscles relax at the thought of sleep.
“I am tired,” I said, in a surrendering tone.
“Don’t do me any favors!” she replied, and turned on her side.
I slipped off my shoes and crawled onto the sofa bed. I had forgotten how surprisingly soft the mattress was, softer than my own twenty-year-old Serta. I pulled a flap of blanket across my chest, let out a deep sigh, and closed my eyes.
Tina’s fingers brushed along my chest and then slid down to my lap. She chortled and sat up on her elbows.
“You’re sleeping in your clothes?” she said. “What’s wrong with you?”
“I think it’s best.”
She shook her head disbelievingly. “Whatever. Goodnight, Kevin.”
She rolled over, pushed her warm rump against my hip, and gyrated her cheeks, sending another rush of desire through my system. Many minutes passed before my heartbeat finally slowed down enough that my mind could drift off into sleep.
* * *
I jerked from dreams into lucidity. My eyes snapped open. I rolled over and tried to focus on the nightstand. A blurred 8:35 a.m. beamed from the alarm clock and illuminated the darkened room with a dim, red glow. Panic hit as I realized the time.
I bolted from the bed.
Tina snorted, jerked awake, and sat up on her elbows.
“What are you doing?” she asked groggily, and yawned into her hand. “What’s happening?”
I found my shoes and slipped them on. The pain in my arm had dwindled to a dull ach. The bandage was dark with dried blood.
“I gotta go!”
“What? Why? What time is it?”
“Early for you. Go back to sleep.”
“Where are you going?”
“I’ve got a meeting.”
She reached for her pack of cigarettes, withdrew one, and lit it. “A meeting? You didn’t say anything about a meeting last night. What do I do about Starkey?”
In my haste, I had forgotten the reason why I was there in the first place.
“I’ll be back in an hour to help you straighten things out if you need me,” I said, and buttoned my shirt. “In the meantime, call the ambulance and get Starkey out of here.”
I grabbed my jacket and pulled one of her cigarettes for myself, thinking briefly about the grueling, nail-biting months it took to bust my addiction to nicotine.
She eyed the cigarette I’d taken. “I thought you quit?”
“I thought I’d quit a lot of things,” I said, and gave her a hard stare.
She crushed her own cigarette in the ashtray beside the bed and settled back under the covers, closed her eyes, and smiled. “You can be such an asshole sometimes.”
I headed into the hallway, passed the door to the festivity room, toward the front.
“Kevin,” she called.
I turned my head and fished my hand into my pocket for my car keys. “Yeah.”
“It was good to have you in my bed again.”
I took a final look around her house and then made my way out the door.
* * *
Pewter-gray clouds encased a dreary, rain-soaked sky. Luckily, my car started on the third twist of the key (I’d needed a new ignition for months) and I didn’t have to jog thirty blocks in the precipitation to make the meeting, though I doubt I would have mustered that much effort to be there. I had made my mind up months ago. I wasn’t going to cave into anyone’s demands, especially a faceless corporation who cared only about profit and knew nothing of the love and perseverance a writer puts into creating a book. This meeting was not going to end well.
I listened to the splash of the wet street beneath the tires, the swish of the wipers playing tag across the windshield. I thought about how beautiful Tina was… and how troubled; and how easily I could slip back into her life if I wasn’t careful. I thought about Jen, and how screwed up our relationship was. Jen was beautiful, confident and kind; the type of girl you wouldn’t have trouble bringing home to meet the parents. Except she lived with my boss, a woman. They were married!
I passed Bella Cemetery and its cornrows of headstones. The image of my father flashed through my mind. It had been nearly four years since the diagnosis. That first year was tough. Dad’s internet gambling had cost most of his savings, so I had to pay for and care for him, make sure he took the proper medications and kept his chemo appointments. I spent a lot of time sitting beside his bed, watching him sleep. Watching to make sure he was still breathing. Sometimes, hoping he’d stop and both our burdens would be over.
Hating myself for having those thoughts.
I’d penned my first novel during that time. A thriller about a down-on-his-luck chef who unwittingly travels the country with a madman who kills at random for sport. I guess it was my way of releasing the stress of caring for dad while waiting for his eventual demise.
I wrote a second book during his last week before dying. I sat by his bed and completed the first draft in three days. Another thriller, this one an expansive portrait of seven enigmatic characters and how they overcome unique and personal disasters to turn into a most unlikely group of heroes.
The year since dad’s funeral and Tina and my breakup, I hadn’t written a single page.
I looked down at the dashboard clock. 9:07 a.m.
I was over an hour late.
I stomped the gas pedal, weaved through traffic, and drove so fast around the city I thought for sure I’d get a ticket, and was a little surprised when I pulled into the parking lot surrounding the ugly concrete façade of the Wolcroft Literary Associates building without the added expense and nuisance of a monetary fine and points against my license.
I scrambled from my car and ran into the structure.
“Morning, Kevin,” greeted a cute, thin, brunette, with doe-like eyes set in a petite face. She sat in front of a computer in the center of a large desk covered with neat stacks of paper. “Haven’t seen you in forever.”
“Hi, Janine,” I said. “Is Frank here?”
“Mr. Wolcroft has been expecting you.” She pointed to a door and indicated that I should proceed through. “Go right in.”
I walked passed her.
“Oh, Kevin,” she added. “Sorry to hear about your father. I haven’t seen you since his loss.”
I grimaced, gave a little appreciative nod, and opened the door into the large corner office with a wide sweeping view of the Schuylkill River. The room had a new paint smell and there was still masking tape along the more difficult trim work.
Frank Wolcroft sat fingers interlaced, his expression bland, behind a desk too large even for that large a space. He was an imposing man, a college football player during his prime, but now, age and the pressures of the literary world had layered his frame with several more pounds than during his playing days. His hair, once full and abundant was thinning at a rate that was noticeable since the last time I’d seen him. His reading glasses were thicker. He did not rise in greeting.
“Didn’t know if you remembered that we made this meeting for 8:00 a.m.,” he said, emphasizing the eight. “Kevin, I haven’t heard from you in nearly seven months. You never returned any of the messages I left.”
“Sorry, Frank.” I replied. “I’ve been busy.”
He nodded sullenly. “About your father. My condolences. Kevin, sit down please.”
I reached for the chair and settled onto its fine leather upholstery. Frank leaned across the lacquered antique oak and glared at me over his glasses.
“Gotham Publishing called yesterday.” His voice was deep with feeling. “They want to see the galleys by Monday. It’s been months. Please tell me you’ve been working on them?”
The urgency in his tone left me briefly speechless.
“I’ve read the changes they suggested,” I said. “It’s bull!”
Frank’s chair creaked as he settled back and folded his arms.
“They know what sells,” he said simply.
I leaned forward. “They want to turn Frostproof into a goddamn movie of the week. It’s a psychological thriller, Frank, not a love story! If I wanted to do squeaky-clean commercial shit I’d probably be a whole lot richer and a whole lot more disgusted with myself.”
Frank put his hands under his chin and stared earnestly into my eyes.
“Look, Kevin,” he said. “I understand artistic integrity and wanting to say something unique to the world and all that. I didn’t get into this business strictly for the dough. I love to read a good, unique book. However, the reality is Gotham Publishing paid a lot of money for the rights to Frostproof. It’s their manuscript now. You threw away your option to be free of corporate bullshit when you John Hancock’d their contract. The editors can change it into anything they want. And if you want the second half of the advance, you’d better damn well make— ”
“Trash plotlines are not how I envisioned my career!” I cut in. “I don’t want to be associated with that kind of pulp fiction!”
Frank’s face crimped and his forehead compressed into rows of wrinkles. “You’d rather be a starving artist?”
I tapped the armrest angrily. “I want my stories published the way I originally wrote them.”
“The industry doesn’t work that way, you know that. Make the changes. Why is this so difficult to accept?”
“And if I refuse?”
He wagged a finger at me. “I’m telling you as your financial advisor, your agent… and your friend. You have no choice. Gotham could sue.”
“Let them!” I stated.
Frank drew up and spoke haughtily; “I have to pay my bills, Kevin! Get this done!” His expression softened. “Let’s not continue this discussion on a bad note. Do us both a favor and make the changes. If Frostproof is a hit, you’ll be able to do whatever you want for your next project.”
“And if it’s a flop my career’s ruined!”
“Not necessarily,” he said. “You’re still a published author with a fan base.”
“A minuscule fan base!” I stood up and pushed back the chair. “Let’s be honest, Frank, you know this industry isn’t three strikes and you’re out, it’s one. I made the changes for Degenerates and look how that one flopped. I wouldn’t have even gotten a second advance if I hadn’t signed a two-book commitment. So don’t tell me the editors know what sells. Changing the main character in Degenerates from a rebellious, nymphomaniac teenager into a celibate independent businesswoman destroyed the psycho-sexual tensions in the book.”
“Doesn’t matter,” Frank said. He cleared his throat. “It’s what they paid for. It’s what they wanted. This is a business, not a canvas for young Hemingway’s.”
I sighed and closed my eyes, too beat to argue.
“Fuck them!” I said, and stepped toward the door.
“You’d better approve the galleys!” He called after me. “You have till Monday or— ”
“Or what?” I stopped and spun around. “Or what, Frank?”
He jerked his glasses off and stared at me steely-eyed. “Don’t fuck this up, Kevin. I’ve invested a lot of time and energy into you. You need to pay off.”