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The Resurrection of Joleigh-Anna Kelmann
by Anita M Shaw  AKA Neenah Davis-Wilson 

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Publisher:  DreamWynd Publishing Company ISBN-10:  0971094136 Type: 
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246

Copyright:  2005 ISBN-13:  9780971094130
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It’s no surprise to the Kelmanns that more friends and relatives show up for cousin Matt’s funeral than had promised to attend Joleigh’s wedding. But immediately after it, Irvy, Joleigh’s fiancé, calls it all off.

Indefinitely.

Matty’s death has hit him hard. He needs time to think, he says. But he’s doing more than thinking, for Joleigh meets him out and about with one of the women from his mother’s exclusive “Eligible Dates for Irvyn—My Doctor Son” list.

Why now, would he throw away the love they’ve shared from childhood as if it were a pair of used latex gloves? And why did he think she’d just tamely let him go? Only what would it take to change his mind?

Then, a horrific car accident seems to answer that for her . . . Only maybe now, it’s just too late.

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Chapter One

Matt's life ended unexpectedly—in a moment of reckless insanity.
 

Wednesday evening, we were a close knit, fun-loving fivesome—
 

Wednesday night . . .
 

Matt was gone.
 

It'd been one of the rare occasions we'd gone our separate ways. Generally, we were inseparable—my cousins, Matt and Lanette Kelmann, my twin brother, Jace-Anthony, my fiancé—Matt's closest friend—Irvyn Woodworth, and I. Only Matt had recently found a girl he cared about almost as much as racing and his cars, and that night, they'd parted from us in the parking lot of Overlook Manor, our favorite restaurant for special occasions.
 

For me, every night out with Irvy is a special occasion. We were supposed to be getting married Sunday . . . tomorrow. I wanted to celebrate that every hour of every day. We had such a good time that evening. Even Krista hadn't really wanted to break up the group. But Matt said he had things he'd wanted to talk to her about.
 

So they left.
 

If only Irvy and I had insisted we stay together, Matt would be alive now.
 

Dad says we can't be sure of that—maybe we'd be dead too. But that's not so. It would've all been different if he hadn't gone off alone that night. I say alone, because Krista hadn't a clue how to handle Matt. How to keep him from doing what he did. She hadn't been dating him long enough to have developed that skill. Although, to be honest, few had it.
 

Yet, I don't think it was for the thrill of it that'd made him go along with this brainless plan. It'd been a challenge, and Matt could never walk away from a challenge. Not even for the sake of his new love. He had a low opinion of guys that wimped out. But Irvy would've known how to make him give up a foolish challenge without hurting his pride. He'd been doing it for years . . . Like the time the idiot gang challenged Matt to tie a ribbon on the tail of Mr. Henning's bull, Fritz.
 

Dashing through the narrow end of the field was one thing. Actually playing in the field where the beast grazed was another. The only humans he tolerated were the Hennings, and he did that grudgingly. That never stopped us from crossing the field to get to where we wanted to go, but we always crossed it at that narrow part so we could be fairly certain of rolling under the fence before we got gored. Then one day we saw Fritz tear apart dogs with his vicious horns and his well-aimed kicks. These two probably deserved their fate—they'd been up to no good in that field, worrying the cattle and attacking a couple of Mr. Henning's best cows. Fritz wasn't satisfied until neither dog moved.
 

So, when Matt showed every determination to display the color of his courage, even the one who emulated his every move was alarmed. That'd be me. And for every reason I had why he shouldn't do it, Matt had two for why he would do it. Not saying they were great reasons, but to the kids we were at the time, they sounded like good ones!
 

Except to Irvy. After we other three had made our attempts talking sense into Matt, he took over.
 

"Matt, this oughta be a two way street here! Challenge one of them back! Make 'em prove their own courage!" Irvy urged him. "Because, I think that when Fritz impales you on those horns, leaving you bloody in the field, so will they! They'll deny they ever dared you to do it! Why give them the satisfaction of laughing at you like that?"
 

Matt could take a joke on himself, be the first to laugh. But to be laughed at in a scornful way, that was different. Then he became something close to Fritz's brother, and you better be booking it to the next county if you were the one mocking him. He'd looked Irvy in the eye, questioned softly, "Laughing at me?"
 

"Sure! That's the only reason they dared you! For a laugh! They probably said, "Hey, we got nothing else to do today! Let's get the brave idiot, Matt Kelmann to tease Henning's bull, and see him bleed!" So where do they get off challenging you when they're as yellow as bananas themselves!"
 

"Irv—I think you got something there! They talk big, don't they? Let's see if their bravery is as big as their mouths, or as puny as their brains!"
 

At the appointed time, we all met at the upper end of the Henning's field. Matt challenged the leader of the gang. "I'll tie the ribbon on Fritz's tail, but you have to go with me and catch the tail so's I can do it!" When they protested and started in on him, he said, "You said I had to tie the ribbon on the tail, you didn't say anything about I had to catch it myself. Now—I'm willing! Got the ribbon right here in my hand. Show me your guts!"
 

Well, they all decided to keep their guts, and we taunted and jeered them so bad they skulked away and left us alone for a long while after. Matt came off looking like Hercules without having to do anything. But if Irvy hadn't said anything to him, he'd've jumped right into that field, and either have wound that ribbon on Fritz's tail or been killed trying. Since he couldn't stand to have anyone think his courage was less than True Blue American, his funeral might have taken place long before now. So I know if we'd been with him Wednesday night, only four days ago . . . only four days . . . was like four years . . . I know Irvy would've shown him that the situation he'd gotten himself into was just like that one with the bull.
 

Very much like it—for it'd been those same guys who'd challenged him this time as well. Two of whom gave themselves up to police the next day. We wanted to run right over and demand their blood right then and there—but Mom and Aunt Lynore wouldn't let us. Their trial was set for the beginning of next month. We'd have our say then. So we have to curb our impatience and hard feelings—and wait. But it's hard.
 

Truth is, though, Matt had always been a little hyper-crazy. Couldn't stay in one spot for two seconds. If he didn't have something constructive to do, he'd find something else to do. Not necessarily always destructive, but then, not within house rules, either. Always interesting, though! Maybe that's what I'd admired about him as a tot. Man, he could egg me on to anything, and I'd do it to win his approval, his admiring, "Whoa, you got guts, Little Jo! More than anyone else—even Irvy!"
 

By the time I'd turned nine, he'd settled into his role in a more companionable way, and we would plan things together instead of him simply daring me to follow.
 

Irvy and Jace always attempted to put a lid on some of our wilder notions. But other times they'd buckled under our taunts of "Chic-ken!" and "Scaredy cat!" to prove they had the same color guts we had. Lanette copied us with never a whimper. She'd eat worms first before she let anyone challenge her courage! Except for when it had to do with anything concerning Fritz.
 

We got our share of bumps and bruises, plus the occasional broken arm or leg, punctuated by disciplines of every sort. None of which pierced our armor. We'd be back at it soon's the dust settled, the redness was out of our seat, limbs were healed—more or less—and/or the grounding period lifted.
 

Amazingly, our parents' had not only kept full heads of naturally hued hair plus their youthful looks, but also their sense of humor continued intact. Probably was what got them through it all.
 

Luckily for us, they never demanded we pack our bags and leave! Really, no one could've asked for more understanding, loving parents!

Everyone bet against us ever reaching our eighteenth birthdays. Even our parents had worried we wouldn't reach adulthood alive and breathing . . . except maybe in a wheelchair. Or, more likely, as a complete vegetable on life support.
 

They all lost their bets for we all made it to our twenty-fourth in great shape, Matt and Irvy achieving their twenty-eighth, in fact. But Matt had missed the big 3-0, (the magic year we were all supposed to grow real brains and settle down for good), by a year and two months. Now the bet was we'd perish before we knew better.
 

Well, so we didn't all have the same sort of brains! Who does? Matt and Irvy'd gone to school together from kindergarten on. While Irvy excelled in everything he did, Matt hadn't taken school too seriously. Since he couldn't sit still for long, he'd considered studying a waste of time, and was the class cut-up for all of his school years. Pretty much graduated by the skin of his teeth.
 

Right out of school he began working as a member of a pit crew, going often to the races, and betting on them, too. Then he discovered rally racing. Entered the annual dash to the top of Mt. Washington and was hooked after that. He took a course at one of the rally schools, then became a co-driver for a few races. However, Matt being Matt, co-driving was far too tame to him. He wanted to be behind the wheel tooling along the mountainous passes, dirt roads, tracks and trails of the grueling courses. But he wanted a navigator he could depend on. Someone who could read the route book and the terrain.
 

Didn't need too much encouragement from him for me to go and get my license. Nine times a year, we were a team on those rally courses that only a mad man would consider navigating. We acquired a Super Beetle and a Subaru for our meets and were climbing steadily up in our levels. Actually, if I have to say it myself, we were a great team!
 

To do him credit, anything to do with cars and racing, Matt was great at. His father and mine owned a full service auto repair shop, so he'd had their influence from the start. Once I became his co-driver, they initiated me under the hood and body of the cars, too. When we ran into problems, was a great feeling to know I'd been able to help get it going again.
 

Lately, we'd begun to take my little brother, Jarrett-Andrew, with us. He loved chatting with the drivers and their co-drivers, enjoyed mingling with the racing crowd. Watching the action from the safety of Dad's arms or Irvy's shoulder. Just a couple weeks ago Jarrett announced his intention of becoming Matt's co-driver and assistant mechanic when he grew up.
 

"Hey, buddy, that's great! I'm waiting for you, okay? You grow up quick, all right! Be four today, but tomorrow, I need you to be twenty-eight!"
 

"Okay!" Jarrett had answered all excited and determined to make it so. "Cuz when Irby marries Joleigh, you need a new nav'gater, huh, Matt? Okay! I eat some more Cheerios, and I be bigger tomorrow! You gonna let me drive too, huh!"
 

"You bet! When you're big enough, you'll be driving these babies with me, buddy!" And Matt'd shaken hands with Jarrett just as if he'd been an adult. He hadn't just been pacifying a toddler, either. Matt passed his enthusiasm onto anyone who'd stand still long enough to listen. Whatever their age.
 

Some said rally racing was pretty much like camping with a race car—but I don't know . . . it was more than that to us. No other camping trip I ever went on featured the thrills of racing against time and terrain at high speed!
 

I'll always be glad that I stood still long enough. Road, rally, drag . . . I loved it all. Matt even backed me to win the powderpuff demolition derby at the fairgrounds a few times. Wearing my own colors, I recently astonished everyone by winning a couple drag racing competitions in his dragster.
 

Mom took pictures of my big event, and had them enlarged and framed for the living room to spite The Club---the exclusive clutch of aunts and older cousins who predicted the worst doom for us. I swear they met weekly to discuss the issue. No, probably daily!
 

Their meddling and their strictures never dulled the twinkle in Matt's eyes, and his good-humored grin had rarely faded. Moreover, anyone could count on him to listen to a sackful of troubles. No matter how busy he was, he'd take time to let you spill your guts or cry your heart out.
 

He might tell you what he thought about the situation, but more often, he'd get you to figure out the solution yourself. He'd drape an arm about your shoulders, give you a quick hug, and he'd say, "Look, you gotta do what you gotta do! But, what is it you want to do? Maybe that's what you gotta do! Y' see? You figure that out and you'll be as happy as me!"
 

Strangely, we did see. Guess it made sense to Uncle Mitch too. He didn't ever once try to talk Matt out of his racing dreams. Talked to him about it with all the animation Matt himself displayed. Always came with us to meets and never held back from backing Matt when he needed it. Matt paid back the debt. Matt always paid back his debts.
 

Except for the last one.
 

Just ten days ago, Irvy'd gone in with him on a Porsche for some road races Matt intended to enter. Wouldn't ever be tried on the track now. I wanted to, but Mom cried when I said it, so I let it go. Was the first time she ever wished I'd just be a girl. So now, Irvy and Uncle Mitch would probably find a buyer for the car. Maybe all of the cars.
 

Not that Irvy seemed to care about the money. Could be he'd opt to just keep the Porsche himself. I sort of hoped he would. Matt'd taken me with him the day he bought that car . . . the one I'd liked the best of the three we'd test driven that afternoon. Somehow, I had to find a way around Mom's objections. She'd never had any before Matt's accident. As treacherous as the rally courses were, she'd never held me back.
 

Okay, sure, I'm impulsive, too. But just because I'm the tomboy type, and can't always sit still for longer'n two minutes, doesn't mean I'm totally brainless. Never had to kill myself to get awesome grades. Just read the material over, did a few exercises in whatever lesson it was to prove to my teachers and my parents I really knew what it was all about-that's it. Graduated at the top of my class.
 

Didn't follow Irvy into med school, or go into law or anything like what was expected of me—by The Club's Standards, anyway. Instead, I'd chosen to 'squander' my talents working at a recreation center with disadvantaged kids and spending time with the lonely elderly at Seaton Hall. And, of course, following Matt's dream of racing down pea gravel roads, flying up and down hills and around hairpin turns, maybe ending up in a swamp because I hadn't read the route book quite accurately.
 

What really torqued me was that, while it was reckoned that I was wasting my time at the Center—probably influencing these tender young lives to a spirit of rebelliousness—these same discerning officials of The Club judged Jace-Anthony to be a wholesome role model for the kids there! Except that:
 

"He ought to get himself a teaching degree! If he likes to teach swimming and athletics to disadvantaged kids, he ought to become a coach or something of the sort! Someone should suggest it to him, he's a sensible lad, he'd listen . . ."
 

Well, the sensible lad still could be persuaded by a cry of "Chic-ken!"
 

Just as Matt had.
 

So, now here we were, assembled with all the members of The Club, and other family members and friends, to weep his tragic passing. Except for my Uncle David and his family. But they had a good reason not to be here. One of their four girls had a serious heart condition, and just recently, she'd collapsed.
 

One of my friends, Thomasyna Tollefson, is an actress—pretty famous one, too—and she'd agreed to take a part in the Littleton Little Theater's benefit play this summer. All the proceeds were to go to Jaimee's family. Jaimee'd been pretty excited over that. She and Thomi had become good pals. Actually, Thomi's the type who makes friends pretty easily. Uncle David hadn't been too happy I'd told her about their problems, but I hadn't meant for Thomi to hop in there and do all that she's done for them—although I should have known she'd do exactly that. She can play the coaxing little girl part to perfection, so in the end David couldn't say no.
 

But, not too long ago, Thomi had a serious riding accident. Serious enough that Dr. Wray—Irvy's Uncle Lloyd—told her she had to give up the play. Only when Aunt Marsha's mom accidently let it slip, last Sunday, that Thomi wouldn't be doing the play, well, Jaimee'd gone crazy. Nothing anyone had said made any difference to her. Not even I could calm her. Thomi probably could have. But she didn't get to the house until after it was over, and Jaimee had been taken away in the ambulance.
 

So now, the poor little kid was languishing in a hospital bed in Providence, her condition pretty much touch and go. For a while, we'd all been afraid she'd not make it.
 

Would've sucked if we'd've had to bury both Jaimee and Matt. Was bad enough that one of my Merriwether cousins had been killed only a month earlier in a car wreck. Although, in Lawron's case, his car had veered off the road and gone over one of those impossibly steep embankments they lay claim to in West Virginia. Probably fell asleep most opinions concluded. Totally different thing from just being a fool as Matt had been!
 

Unlike The Club, though, David and Marsha had envied Matt's energy. Appreciated his genuine concern for little Jaimee. He used to take time to go with me and entertain her and her sisters. So them, we could forgive for not being here with us. For the four of us—now three, they were our second favorite aunt and uncle.
 

In general, though, everyone's hectic life allowed for attendance at funerals. Once in a while, a wedding—rarely, a birth. But always, always a funeral. Nothing makes people regret hurtful words and actions—things left undone or unsaid—than does a funeral. Or recall all the words of wisdom they'd imparted to the deceased—which, of course, went unheeded for the most part, and look what happened because of it!

What a field day they were having tonight! Lanette and I wished they'd all leave, but there was yet another hour before we could kiss them all goodbye. Some of them, we wanted to just plain kiss off!
 

Like Uncle Todd Merriwether—who didn't seem to me to be all that loaded with common sense himself. He'd dropped out of school at thirteen, and at fifty-two, was still trying to discover what he wanted to be when he grew up. But there he was, crying about Matt's shortcomings.
 

"Why hadn't that kid done something better with his life! Such a waste! Which is what he did with his time in school! Everyone knew this was bound to happen sometime! He was just too wild!"/P>

"At his age—playing Chicken, for God's sakes! And taking his girlfriend along, besides!" Uncle Buck Kelmann threw up a hand in bewildered disgust. "Way out there on Mill Road . . . no ambulance could've gotten to him in time, even if Krista had been able to call for one sooner!"
 

"Heard he staked that restored '76 Nova of his in the deal!" Teddy, a.k.a. Turdy, informed. "Didn't he realize he couldn't drive the thing dead! Noble of him to show 'em all the true color of bravery!" He gave a derisive snicker. "Gushing Red!"
 

Lanette groaned and looked ready to puke. She sent him a black look, which he caught, since he was looking right over at us. I wouldn't give him the satisfaction of acknowledging I'd heard it. Turdy's a jerk.
 

How glad I was that Krista wasn't there to hear all this. She'd watched it all go down, unable to do a thing about it. Maybe I'd need a counselor too, if I'd had to witness anything so horrifying. Be left alone with a dying person . . . having to decide between staying with him and finding help.
 

No one ever considered how Matty must have been feeling about then. Had he known he was dying? Had he thought of us? Or had he been in too much pain to think at all? Or just plain out of it, which seemed likely. Even that, Krista had been unable to tell us. I'm not sure if I hoped, one day, she'd be able to or not. I'd like to think he didn't suffer too badly. Didn't have any trouble hoping the guys who'd egged him on were suffering in jail, though . . .
 

"How could anybody let someone bleed to death practically all by himself in the dead of night?" Aunt Becky demanded, wrathfully. "That poor girl! Frightened to death, I'll bet!"
 

Actually, it'd been about ten o'clock. But out there on Mill Road—a little used road favored by the daring for illegal drag races—it might as well have been the dead of night.
 

Answered Aunt Nedra, the Sweet and Gentle. "Well, you know that bunch! Matt had trouble with them before. They were always trying to get him to do daring things of one sort or another. The police say they apparently began mocking his racing accomplishments and when they challenged him, he lost his head and accepted."
 

"Well, that was Matt!" observed my cousin Wendy. "Maybe if it'd happened in winter he wouldn't've bled to death."
 

"Maybe so, but he'd've been alive now if he could've curbed his impulsiveness!" put in Great Grandfather Louis Kelmann, who carried a cane for appearances only—being in better shape than most of his great grandsons. "Cars aren't for playing such witless games! But you can't tell kids anything! They know it all! Ha! I did at his age! Yessir! I gave my old pop, and my mother, too, a scare every once a week! Still, I never thought he'd do anything like this! Especially not in front of a woman—except maybe Joleigh!"
 

"Well, then, no wonder Matty was a hellion, Pop Louis! In any case, no one should hold anything against Mitch and Lynore!" Aunt Nedra pointed out. "Matty was of age after all!"
 

"One of us should've stepped in and took a hand with that kid! Slapped up Mitch and Lynore, and made them see the storm coming!" Aunt Dorene uttered with deep-seated conviction. "Probably isn't going to end with him!"
 

"Oh, like she cares so deeply!" Lanette uttered disparagingly—but not so's anyone but I could hear her, of course.
 

Aunt Dorene, Mom's youngest sister and Crown Princess of The Club, had the annoying habit of proclaiming, "Don't any of you call on me to baby-sit! I'm not single to be anybody's Mary Poppins!"
 

As if anyone would really want to leave their defenseless children in her care. I think her self-centered stupidity is the only thing all of us cousins agreed on. Except for Turdy, who's just like her.
 

Still, I was fair. "Well, she did take us to The Newport Creamery!"
 

Lanette gave me a sour look. "Yeah, right. Once when we were about ten! What about all those times she planned family outings, but left our families out! Even now, she does it!"
 

"That's why they're called family 'outings'," I informed her.
 

She cracked an involuntary laugh despite her grief. "Don't, Joleigh! Don't get me started. I won't be able to stop!"
 

"Oh, heinous! Think what they'd say then! How dare you laugh like an idiot at your brother's wake?" I altered my voice. "But—it's just like Mitch and Lynore to let her stick with Joleigh-Anna at a time like— "
 

"Jo-leigh!" Lanette cut off my imitation of Aunt Willa and bit her lips hard to keep from losing it altogether.
 

Was nerves, you know. She'd break into giggles if a tiger was about to rip her to shreds. Which pretty much described the members of The Club. This affliction had gotten her into trouble at school, oh, tons of times. The worst was the time she got blamed for a fire in the girls' room trash basket. Someone else had tossed a butt in there, and it burst into flames just after Lanette had left. So since it was she who'd been last seen coming out of there . . .
 

So mortified she'd been about being accused, she just doubled over in guffaws, the tears streaming down her face. No one would believe her when she tried to explain she didn't smoke. First time for everything had been their response to that. They'd called me down to the office, I'm really not sure why. They didn't believe me either.
 

When her mom and dad walked into the principal's office half an hour later, she was still carrying on. She'd had fits of the giggles for three days after they'd suspended her. It all got sorted out—eventually. I couldn't imagine that it'd be any prettier if she broke up like that tonight!

But I couldn't help myself. The snide remarks just burst out without asking my permission.
 

"If that boy'd been my kid," boomed Aunt Willa, Dad's oldest sister and Empress of The Club, "I'd've curbed his wild ways! He'd be alive now!"
 

"Yes, chaining him to the cellar walls until he was sixty-five would keep him safe!"
 

"I'm gonna kill you!"
 

"No, no! If you kill me, you'll only start them on the theory that you did it so Irvy could be yours at last! Shame on you, but—perfectly understandable!"
 

She sucked in a gasp, not quite choking back the giggle, clasped her hand to her mouth, and turned to inspect the huge bouquet of peach roses right beside her. Noticing some of my uncles and one pair of our grandparents watching us, I swung around too, threw my arm around her, pretending to console her.
 

Behind us, Aunt Wanda, the Grand Duchess of The Club, declared self righteously, "I hope JuliAnna and Jorden learn something from this experience . . .!"
 

"Oh, I'm sure they have! I know I have—haven't you?"
 

". . . because if they're not careful, that little Jarrett's going to be another Matthew Gorden Kelmann . . .!"
 

" . . . what an honor that would be!" I chirped at the same instant my aunt charged, " . . . what a shame that would be!"
 

"Joleigh! Quit!"
 

Recognizing she was in serious distress, I relented. "I'm sorry! Look, you want to move someplace else?"
 

"Where?" Lanette demanded with an emphatic gesture. "We're sardines in here already!" Then her eyes filled up again, and she ended, "I'm not moving! We cared about Matt; they didn't!"
 

We'd been standing close by Matt's casket since we'd first arrived. A little to the side, though, so we could be as out of the way as possible so others could come up and pay their respects. Every spare spot in the room was occupied. We could go outside, but that's where the smokers of the family were congregated. Didn't want to be out there. The air was bad enough right where we were.
 

Aunt Willa proceeded to sully it some more. "It's a wonder their hair isn't pure white! Mother's was at thirty-five because of Jorden and Mitchell! But then, nothing those kids have ever done has ever fazed them! Such monsters they were back then! Why, they were always hiding on Tina, picking on her and making her feel so bad!"
 

"Well, that was the fun of it!" Lanette uttered darkly. "Besides—she was bad. Still is!"
 

"Personally," I continued, not able to let it alone, "I think our dads did Gram a favor! She looks much prettier with snow-white hair, don't you think? I think— "
 

A pair of hands settled, one upon Lanette's shoulder and one upon mine, at once startling us, yet making us stand very still. "You're going to give everyone the wrong impression, girls!" Gramma Kate Kelmann whispered in our ears.
 

Oh . . . busted! She's always been good about sneaking up on people—hearing what you didn't want her to! "Ah, Gram, they already have that!"
 

"Then change it. You've the power to do that!"
 

"What good would it do? They don't have the power to see you're not bald!"
 

Lanette snickered, and Gramma Kate gave her a playful shove. Then she patted my shoulder, saying, "Well, someday, I'll point that out to them! Although they are aware, there were moments when I had wanted to rip my hair out! Some of this is true, you know! Behave, both of you! Remember where you are!"
 

She moved away, and I said to Lanette, "Like we can forget?"
 

"Jorden and Mitchell were just like them, though—always teasing us to tears!" Aunt Willa bored on. She slapped a hand to her cheek, and then made a gesture. "They weren't teasing when they ran off with Lynore and JuliAnna Merriwether—remember Wanda? I bet you my best sweater they'd have children from Hell! Allying themselves with that family, how could it be otherwise! Although, as I say, Jace has managed to turn out fairly well." She gazed off to her left where our parents stood in a receiving line. "Lynore looks positively near collapse! Poor dear, I'll be so glad when this is over for her!" As if it'd be all better tomorrow, like it all could be healed with just a kiss and a hug.
 

"So," Aunt Dorene looked ready to do some battle over the issue. "You're saying if I were to get married, my kids would be Children from Hell?"
 

"Don't you open those lips!" Lanette hurriedly warned me, just as I began to. She was already in a fair way to busting a gut, having an excellent idea of what I'd meant to say. Killed me to spare her, but I did.
 

Aunt Willa reached out to lay a hand on Dorene's arm. "Oh, my dear, you're so unlike them both that I forget you're related!" in a tone that left one wondering how she really meant that. Then in altogether a different one, she said, "I can't imagine why you're taking offense. You agree with us!"
 

"Well, she oughta recognize two faces when she sees 'em—she wears more than one herself!"
 

Lanette dug her fingers into my ribs, making me jump and give a little startled cry. Out of the corner of my eye I witnessed the look our aunts cast us. At once, we both about-faced to Matt's coffin. Pretended to be overcome with grief.
 

That quick it wasn't a pretense. Cold despair like fingers of icy mountain air touched my brain and numbed it. My heart, squeezed with pain, cried for mercy—and none was granted it. Seeing him lying there . . . knowing he'd never be with us again . . .
 

For a minute, I wanted to faint, but I fought it, breathing in deeply, struggling to stay with it. That'd be the last thing Lanette needed. She'd go to pieces and collapse herself. Wasn't what our parents needed to deal with right now, either. And then, of course, there'd be The Club . . .
 

So I clung to the corner edge of the coffin to keep myself upright. Fingering the frame of the photo of our win at Mt. Washington, I tried to focus my mind on it and the events of that day. From it, my gaze wandered to other mementos. Pictures of his favorite cars were arranged on tables among the bouquets nearby, pictures of the two of us in the Super Beetle after the Cherokee Trail race propped at his waist and a model of a 911 Porsche in his hands. The car he'd just bought with Irvy's help.
 

Krista's parents had come earlier and they'd tucked a picture of her and Matt down beside him. Such a waste! He and Krista had seemed so right for each other.
 

When Lanette began dating Dante Leighton, another friend of Matt and Irvy's, we joked about having a triple wedding. Only Jace remained unattached. I think that's another reason why The Club held him in such esteem. Such a chaste young man! Lanette and I, however, hadn't lost much sleep over knowing they believed we never had been. Although from time to time, we wondered if it was fair of us to be making liars of them all . . .
 

Lanette moved closer. Reaching out, she touched Matt. Her fingers suddenly grasped the fabric of his suit, and she gave him a rough little shake. Rough, as if it would bring him back, little, because she knew it wouldn't. Too, there was a good deal of resentment in her eyes—resentment that he'd done something so idiotically stupid. Something that'd left her brotherless.
 

I couldn't touch him. If I touched him, I'd lose it for sure, and quicker than hipless Aunt Wanda lost her flowered bikini in the thundering waves at the beach every year! Which would start that chain reaction mentioned earlier . . .
 

As guests arrived, they trekked up to say goodbye in their individual manner, hugged us quick, uttering a few words of condolence. They'd then made their way down the mourning line, commiserating with the family. Some stayed with them, others went off to join another group elsewhere.
 

Still others simply weren't very good at this sort of thing. After the obligatory hug and a mumbled "Sorry!" they fled the funeral home. I wished I could. My whole being felt as tense as a giant coiled spring. One that wanted to let loose and bounce all over the place. I just wanted this to be over. Wanted to be alone to sort it all out.
 

Or, no—no, I wanted Matt to get up out of there and laugh his face off, like it was all a big joke. Wanted him to tell everyone just what he thought of them. Shock 'em all worse than he'd ever shocked 'em before! We'd yak at him for having scared us so bad, but then we'd praise his awesome audacity and go celebrate it with a pizza.
 

It'd be the prank of the century! Totally worthy of him!
 

Ah, but his roguish laugh we'd only hear on family movies from now on . . . An echo in memory.
 

I had just made this miserably sad observation to Lanette when jumbo arms separated us, clamping us in a smothering, perfumed embrace. "Well, Joleigh-Anna, Lanette," Aunt Willa said in her disapproving, yet patronizing tone, "if you've learned something by this unfortunate accident, his death won't be completely for nothing! He had his whole life ahead of him! So very sad! Such a pretty young lady he'd found for himself, too!" Heaving one of her gusty sighs, she tightened her hold on us for an instant. About broke our ribs. "But he's in a better place now, so I suppose we shouldn't speak harshly of him."
 

As if she'd ever actually stop!
 

I must've worn a look that revealed my feelings in a more comical way then I knew. For Lanette met my gaze across Aunt Willa's ample bosom and immediately hid her face in it and succumbed to the giggles again. Aunt Willa clucked in her mock sympathetic way, begging her not to cry so hard.
 

Her clumsy consolations to Lanette finally got to be more than I could listen to without squirming. I was ready to scream, "Shut up! Will you just shut up! Yes, he's dead, but nothing's ever going to make us miss him less!"
 

I'd've liked to have said it and more, but I bit it all back—out of respect for my parents, and Aunt Lynore and Uncle Mitch—and Matt's memory. Yapping off would only make them sigh all the more at how thoroughly Matt had corrupted me.
 

So, I extricated myself from her viselike hold . . . only to be instantly embraced by Aunt Wanda's bony arms. No bosom at all to cushion sorrows. And her prosaic utterances didn't make up for it, either. Logic doesn't help at such an emotional time. Plenty of people don't realize that . . . nor ever know how much salt they've rubbed into a wound because they don't.
 

But . . . for all those reasons I hadn't told Aunt Willa to shut up, I tolerated Aunt Wanda's show of affection as well. Or whatever it was. They were family after all . . .
 

Although . . . this blood is thicker than water stuff seemed like double talk to me. When I'm thirsty, give me a drink of water! I had friends who'd be there for me quicker than most of my relatives. No questions. No finger pointing.
 

At length, they released us, and linking arms, they refocused on those in the mourning line. I glanced over at Aunt Lynore and my mom, feeling exquisite pity for them to have to endure a second round with those two. But, then, an acquaintance of theirs snagged my aunts' notice and engaged them in some chatter that presently had nothing to do with Matt, or any of us, so Mom and Aunt Lynore gained a decent respite.
 

"Good grief," I heard Turdy utter to Wendy, "Behold—The Whale and The Eel! Those two look more like twins!" Meaning Lanette and me.
 

"A whole lot prettier, too!" murmured Uncle Todd, not censoring him for saying anything so disrespectful, nor Wendy for laughing.
 

"Ooo, a compliment!" I uttered to Lanette. "I'm gonna faint!"
 

But Uncle Todd was wrong. The Whale and the Eel were as identical as they could be—inside! They saw things out of the same eyes—even though one pair's hazel, and the other's mud brown! Had tongues as sharp as butcher knives, too, and hearts about as indifferent as a dreary November day!
 

I said so to Lanette and concluded, "Looks don't mean a thing! They're twins no question!"
 

"Joleigh-Gramma Kate's looking at you!"
 

"Ah, so what? Everyone tolerates them and each other just for appearances! Makes me nuts!"
 

My uncles, Ralph and Aldo, stood away from us all, not putting any limits on their busybody spouses. They weren't the ones wearing the pants in their families, that's for sure! Ralph, a beanpole type, claimed Aunt Willa as his, while Aldo, somewhat stouter, had married Wanda. We always figured they'd've made great cartoon characters, the four of 'em!
 

Uncle Aldo caught my eye, and he gave me a smile and a little wink. Uncle Ralph smiled too, and might have come over to chat a second had not Frankie, Tina's husband, joined them.
 

How nice Frankie got along with his in-laws-more or less. He even called Aunt Willa, Ma.
 

I'm sure I couldn't hear myself calling Mrs. Woodworth anything but Mrs. Woodworth. No warm feelings were ever likely to flow between us. Just a wary apprehension on my part, and a cool tolerance on hers!
 

One of the smaller groups disbanded, giving me a better view of those who made up the mourning line. Aunt Lynore's dark blue pantsuit emphasized her pallor. She seemed so very frail just then. Her gaze seemed to be intent on Jace and Irvy, who remained apart from the rest of us. Jace, in stunned angry silence, acting like the whole world was to blame for Matt's death and not Matt himself. Irvy stood by Jace's seat, not trying to engage him in any conversation—just being there for him. While Irvy didn't display quite the same attitude, he did give the impression of wanting to be left alone.
 

Couldn't blame either one. Weren't many here who knew how to be tactful and truly comforting to us.
 

Aunt Lynore abruptly swung around to grab my mother and weep upon the shoulder of Mom's hunter green blazer. Mom spoke soothingly to her, letting her freely soak it. Catching my glance, she sent me an encouraging smile which I answered with a rueful one. Her gaze then searched out Jace and Irvy's corner. It appeared to me that Mom's sadness seemed to deepen, get sort of wistful when she watched Irvy. Kind of the same way Aunt Lynore's had just now.
 

I supposed they probably were recalling the very first time Irvy showed up at Aunt Lynore's front door. Uncle Mitch told that story a lot.
 

Irvy'd only been two years old when he snuck out of his house and trotted cross lots to ask if Matt could come out and play. When they asked him how he'd known Matt lived there, he'd answered matter of factly, "I see a boy playing when we go by his house. I say, he's my friend! I go find him, that's all." As for how he knew how to find him, well, that's still a mystery. Even if you asked him now, he'd just shrug and say, "Just did, that's all."
 

Dr. Woodworth, Sr. phoned my aunt and invited the whole family to dinner-not necessarily with Mrs. Woodworth's blessing. Irvy's dad ended up admiring Matt's spunk—was actually proud his own son had shown some. Thought Irvy should get dirty like a real boy ought to, and that Matt was just the one he ought to do it with. Moreover, he had been favorably impressed with Aunt Lynore and Uncle Mitch. Figured if they could handle their hyper son at a stranger's house without losing their cool, they were quite worthy of watching over his son, too. Arranged for the boys to get together so Irvy wouldn't be walking the streets alone, anymore.
 

Mrs. Woodworth didn't want the hassle of looking out for Matt, so Irvy always went to Aunt Lynore's. Or sometimes the two mothers would meet at the rec center playground so Mrs. Woodworth had some assurance her precious son wasn't being bullied or led into criminal mischief by Matty. Guess her attitude toward my aunt was pretty much the way it was toward me—cool but civil. Her wall of reserve never came down.
 

Mom and Aunt Lynore would have the same memories, for they've always been really close. They genuinely loved kids, and they'd often sat for each other-even for all the trouble we'd all cause sometimes. Both had stood up to Mrs. Woodworth in our defense—Matt's and mine—oh, countless times. Which was never an enviable task. The Club's accusations and opinions you could ignore—more or less. Mrs. Woodworth's stare and cool hauteur was something else altogether.
 

Mom's glance came back to Matt lying as if he were napping in the casket. She bit trembling lips, but her tears flowed anyway, and she hugged Aunt Lynore tighter.
 

Uncle Mitch and Dad maintained stoic fronts beside them, giving out tight smiles and firm handshakes. But I'd seen Uncle Mitch sob earlier at home. There was a lost kind of look in his eyes. And he couldn't gaze at the body in the coffin for longer than an instant or two. I guess that's how Dad would look if it were Jace or Jarrett.
 

My aunts' friend, finally through bending their ears, waved a general goodbye to all gathered there and left. Aunt Willa and Aunt Wanda converged upon the mourning line. My grandparents Merriwether left it. Guess once was enough for them!
 

"Ah, Lynore—JuliAnna! How are you two holding up? Must be comforting for you, Lynore, that so many have shown up tonight! He was well liked, wasn't he, dear?" As if it were some kind of miracle.
 

However, as if their true feelings about Matt didn't matter, Aunt Lynore surrendered to their insincere embraces, accepting their further condolences at face value. Not only theirs, but anyone else's besides, whatever their opinion of Matt was. Pretty forgiving of her!
 

This hypocritical routine was pretty much the same at every funeral. Soon's the last respects duty was performed and the line traversed, these meddling judges of the family assembled to begin diatribes or reassembled to continue where they'd left off.
 

Wasn't anything different about tonight.
 

Aunt Becky was sighing now, "Oh, but I feel so sorry for Lynore and Mitch! Their only boy!" As if Matty had had a dozen sisters instead of just Lanette.
 

"Next it's going to be Jorden and JuliAnna's only girl ending up dead in some unfortunate manner! Well—unless something happens to poor little Jaimee first!" proclaimed Aunt Willa, edging back in between her and Wendy. "Lord A'mighty, that Joleigh and Matt should've been brother and sister—and Lanette and Jace! Hard to think of Jace and Joleigh as twins!"
 

"Oh, please . . .!" Lanette moaned. "Listen to who's making the comparison!"
 

Guess Gramma Grace Merriwether felt the same way. I heard her mutter to someone in her group, "I've been often thankful for the miracle that made sure the children would be Merriwether blue eyed redheads! None of 'em too fat nor bony—nor ill-tempered!" I glanced back in time to see her sweep a telling glance the length of my imperfectly shaped, disagreeable Kelmann aunts. Somehow, she forgot that Uncle Todd and Aunt Dorene were the dark haired, chubby, disagreeable flaws in the Merriwether perfection.
 

"Well, if Irvyn Woodworth knows what's good for himself," declared Aunt Wanda, who either hadn't heard my grandmother at all, although she stood right behind her, or else she pretended she hadn't, "he ought to listen to his mother—marry someone else! He allies himself with Joleigh-Anna, his patients'll suffer horribly! Does she intend to keep racing without Matt now? Well, Irvyn'll be having to go with her to make sure she doesn't injure herself! Although—I think I could have accepted Matt's death better had he died in one of his precious rally cars! Or any of the others! Chicken, for God's sakes! Did you ever—?"
 

"Look at it this way, thanks to Matt's foolishness, Irvyn's gotten a respite!" Tina left a group of my older cousins to come join the one her mother reigned in. "Maybe he will reconsider marriage with her!"
 

"Oh, here we go," uttered Lanette, her eyes glinting angrily through her tears. "Like broken records they are!"
 

"Not as if we weren't expecting it," I reminded her. She sniffed in disgust.
 

Aunt Willa replied with conviction to Tina, "He should! He's always given in to Joleigh! What she wants, he gives her! He was as much a party to her crimes as Matt was! Did he ever tell her not to go off on these dangerous races with Matt? No! He gave her his blessing, and that was that! Who'd trust a man like that with their health and welfare? I doubt I could! Although his father was a saint when he was alive, and his uncle is! But," on a sorrowful sigh, "that's a different generation! In any case, all this has put off their plans for tomorrow, hasn't it? Might be the best thing that's happened, in that case!"
 

Cousin Tina poked her huge pregnant body even further into the center of things, and stated confidently, "Well, in any case, my child will never grow up to be like any of them! We won't allow it! We're going right by the book! Aren't we, Frankie?"
 

Frankie glanced over from beside Uncle Ralph and shrugged. "If that's what you want to do."
 

"There's a baby to pity!" I muttered.
 

"Oh, she's just saying that because she's still holding grudges against us for all the pranks we pulled on her-and for Irvy telling her he'd never trade you for a pumpkin like her back then! Such a crybaby! She hasn't lost that whining pouty voice, after all this time, either, has she?"
 

"Nope, and now that she's pregnant, her pumpkin body is even more round and—well . . . pumpkiny!" I eyed Tina cynically, and recited in a sing song tone, "Jelly Jelly Pumpkin Belly, fell in cow flop, now she's really smelly!"
 

The old rhyme conjured up the hilarious events of that day. Oh God . . . so funny watching Tina try to impress Irvy . . . picking him wildflowers in the meadow. Some of the cows were out in that field, and one of them looked just like Fritz, being one of his daughters. She took an interest in Tina's flower gathering and ambled over to check it out. Well, we couldn't resist . . . "Run! Run! Fritz is after you! Run! Quick!"
 

Tina turned as white as the daisy petals, and she took off without looking back. Didn't look where she was going either. She slipped and slid for five minutes in the biggest cow pie out there, trying to keep her balance and get out of it. When she looked over her shoulder and saw the cow trotting up to her, Tina'd screamed, lost her footing altogether, and plop! Right into the putrid pile! Covered in ripely fresh poo, she lay there petrified while the cow munched the wildflowers right out of her hand. We'd rolled on the ground, breathless, sides splitting, tears streaming from laughter. Don't think she talked to us for six months after that!
 

Lanette, gasping on a guffaw, slapped her hand over her mouth again. Which attracted all kinds of embarrassing attention. Had to bite my own lips to keep from losing it myself.
 

"You idiot!" she flung at me, and sucked in her cheeks, trying not to look as if she were in hysterics. Didn't appear to help much. "Oh, man, that was sooo funny! She was sooo mad—! Such a killjoy she was, though . . .!"
 

"Gonna carry it into motherhood, too!" Then, striking a pose, I mimicked Tina's signature statement. "My mother says you guys're going to end up in jail someday!" Lanette doubled over in a fresh peal of laughter. I held her steady. "I'll go by the heart when I have kids. Forget the book!"
 

"M-me too!" between giggles. "But y-you're gonna p-pay for this, Joleigh-Anna!"
 

Aunt Nedra sent us a look of mild reproof mingled with deep sympathy. In her soft spoken way, she took it upon herself to explain our behavior to anyone interested—or not. "It's nerves, you know! They don't mean anything disrespectful! This is just too hard for everyone, and it's not the time to be talking like this, Willa! Matty's gone, and it's a loss to all of us! Maybe if we'd just been a little more understanding! You know, we never asked him to stay with us, Jed. Ted and Freddy got along with him rather well. If we'd just put ourselves out more . . ."
 

Uncle Jed, one of Dad's elder brothers, agreed. "We ought to get together more with everyone, anyway. Have a picnic or something once a year. Do something to keep in touch!"
 

"Dad—we have been getting together once a year. Someone's accommodated us for the past eight! Actually, Matt makes the second—no, the third—for this year! Good enough for me!" proclaimed Turdy, half in jest, half not.
 

"Theodore!" Aunt Nedra reproved as if he were ten. "Now that's just plain rude! A family get together would be a wonderful idea!"
 

Turdy, who never liked Matt, or any of the rest of us, despite what his mother thought, demanded, "What would we do at it? Sit around gabbing about the good old days? I've got a life, Ma! Why should I spent it at a dull boring family reunion or whatever? Got other things I'd rather be doing!" He pulled his latest love closer to his side, and waggled his brows at her suggestively. She giggled, and snuggled even closer to him.
 

Can't imagine what she saw in him. Such a self-centered sleazeball! The type who'd offer to trade five pennies for a dime with a toddler—like Jarrett—convincing the kid he had the better deal since he had more coins. Plus, this girl was much younger than he was. Younger than me, even! Must've gotten hooked on his looks. Was the only thing he had going for him!
 

"We all have a life, Ted," retorted Freddy curtly. "Unlike you and dear Aunt Dorene, some of us want more in it than just ourselves! Matt had a life! I should have put myself more into it when I had the chance! Too late, now, huh? Too late for Lawron, too! You know, we really never knew much of anything that was going on in his life. What happened to that drop dead gorgeous girl he was going to marry? Didn't even see much of her at his wake and funeral. What was up with that?" Thinking of someone else whose life he hadn't paid much attention to, he added, "Probably too late tonight to drive to Providence . . . see Jaimee."
 

Freddy walked away from them before anyone could reply. He flung a glance Jace's way, went over to grasp his hand, then Irvy's, said a few words of sympathy and regret, and then came to hug us girls quick-like and gruffly say, "I'm really sorry, guys! I wish—" He couldn't finish. He let us go, and without another glance at Matt or anyone else, he strode out of the building.
 

I've always liked Freddy okay. He'd never been anything like Tina or Turdy—always wanted to join in when he and his family came to visit. But his mother's overprotective ways nearly always put a damper on things. She rarely said no outright, but she'd take hours to bang it into his head of how to look out for dangers and not to do this, that or the other thing, or to do this, that, or the other—until we got sick of waiting for him and went off without him.
 

If her lectures hadn't ripped the heart from him, he'd try to find us. More often, though, we'd come back and find him bored to tears, kicking rocks around the driveway or sitting on the porch steps, his chin in his hands, looking sadly glum.
 

Guess we should've just snuck him off with us without asking anyone's permission for it. So what if Turdy or Tina told on us. They'd done that all the time, anyway. And, come to think of it, for all her stupid lectures, Aunt Nedra'd never been as disapproving as all our other aunts had been. Just too darned careful!
 

In fact, she hadn't been as disapproving as much as Mrs. Woodworth had been—on the occasions she'd happened to find out what we'd been up to. But Dr. Woodworth hadn't ever lost sleep over our antics, nor had he believed we kids would turn to a life of crime because of a few pranks or risky outings. Said it was just plain youthful silliness that growing up would cure. He'd bound up our cuts and set our broken bones, and then sent us out into the world for more!
 

He'd been a totally cool guy! Course, I would think that . . . he'd been looking forward to the day Irvy'd propose to me. To his wife's despair, I was his dream for his only son. Made me promise him the second dance at our wedding. But he'd died, unexpectedly, just after Irvy graduated. That'd been hard, and thinking of him made me miss him, too, as much as Matt, and the lump in my throat grew bigger. A few more tears of regret trickled down.
 

Mrs. Woodworth had come earlier to pay her respects, but hadn't stayed beyond the time it took to do it. Seeing me in the same room with Irvy simply stabbed her with many regrets. Maybe she didn't exactly show it, but I imagine she was relieved Matt would no longer be an influence in Irvy's life. One of her dreams had come true . . .
 

The last forty-five minutes of the wake dragged. People continued to disparage most of the things Matt had done, or that we'd done together with him; others dug into otherwise indifferent hearts to find something good to say about him. Regretting, like Freddy, they'd not taken enough time, or risked the censure, to do things with him.
 

Matt's particular buddies didn't linger. They felt uncomfortable in the presence of so much disapproval. Except Tippy Waldron and his new wife, Colleen. Tippy didn't listen to anyone's drivel. As a matter of fact, he treated them as if they weren't even there.
 

Which is the way some of Thomi Tollefson's family acted toward them, too, when they all came in. We'd been friends with them since they moved to Kingsdale and opened up the riding center there. Mom liked to ride, so she brought us over to check the new place out. We learned to ride at DreamWind and never went anyplace else. So, the lot of us, the triplets, Thomi, Rikki, and Halleigh, and their younger sister, Lyndsay, and Lanette and me, had hung around together. Their older brothers—Geoffrey, Nicky, Adrien, and Tristen—had joined Matt, Jace, and Irvy in plenty of excursions. Their temperaments had matched Matt's pretty closely. Although, Geoffrey'd been a little more like Irvy.
 

Still it was more cause for Mrs. Woodworth to shudder. The Tollefsons had been once a part of a small traveling circus. Only God knew what dangerous practices her precious son would learn from them! Like riding a galloping horse bareback—standing up.
 

Actually, Irvy got pretty good at it.
 

"Such a stinkin' shock!" uttered Tippy in his dramatic manner. "Man, he was on his way to making it big! We had a shot at the Nationals this year! Can't think of anyone else I wanted to team with!"
 

He put a long muscular arm about each of us, while maintaining a hold of Colleen's hand. Tippy helped us keep the cars in the best racing form. He was a dependable, friendly guy. Sometimes he'd navigated for Matt when I wasn't able to.
 

"Here, don't cry, Lanette! He'd hate to see you like this! I hate to see you like this! Dante should be here with you! Seems like he could've found someone else to take over that goat call! I mean, if he says he loves you, Lanette, he should be here with you! Where's Krista?"
 

"Tippy, Krista's a wreck and couldn't face it, and as for Dante, how could he turn his back on his neighbor's goat?" Lanette asked him. "The poor thing was badly mauled. He said he'd be here if he could be. I've got Joleigh—and now Thomi, Halleigh and Lyndsay are here! I'm fine!"
 

"Stephan, could have gone in his place!" Tippy shot a sharp, accusing glance at Thomi, as if she ought to have made sure he had. "And how'd his family take the news he'd hired Dante to partner with him? They faint?" Tippy gave a derisive snort. "There's another snooty bunch—the Deverills! How'd you ever get mixed up with them, Thomasyna? Heard he wanted to dump you last night! Right in front of your adoring audience, too! Why was this—another of your mind boggling switches with—" He waved his hands at her and her sisters, wiggling his fingers as he did. "—your carbon copies, your clones? You'd all drive me to drink— No, drive me over a cliff, more like! I imagine, though, Jaimee'll be happy to hear you did her play after all!"
 

"I hope so. I risked everything to do it for her! As for you, you've nothing to fear," Thomi responded soothingly. "None of us want to date, marry, or otherwise get hooked up with you, Tiptoes. You're safe—more or less!" She grinned at his scowl of her audacious use of a nickname few got away with calling him. Thomi put an arm around Lanette then. "He and Stephan went together on this call. I would have gone in Dante's place, you know. Or Stephan's cousin Kourtnay might have. Only neither of the guys would let us. Stephan told me my place was here with you and Joleigh. So here I am. Look, whatever you think, Lanette, Dante cares about you. Believe him when he says so."
 

"Yeah, don't be like Thomasyna!" Halleigh advised. "Take too long coming to your senses, and he'll find someone else. Do you really want that?"
 

Lanette bit her lip. She didn't want it, but didn't want to admit it. Halleigh smiled, shook her head slightly, and reached out to tap Lanette's arm. "I hope you've enjoyed all those custom made cards he's given you! He's been my best customer lately! I can draw you in my sleep!"
 

"He's asked Rikki to come up with a love song for your wedding!" Lyndsay added. "Does this mean he's getting ready to ask you?"
 

"Oh, God! A love song? She didn't say she would, did she?" Lanette clasped Lyndsay's arm, her gaze begging her to say she hadn't. The amused gleam in Lyndsay's emerald eyes said she had.
 

While Lanette cared about Dante, she wasn't quite sure she felt the same way he did. He'd once promised to team up with Matt and me as one of our mechanics as Tippy had. But then he'd decided he'd rather doctor animals than cars and had gone to school for that instead. Don't think Lanette ever forgave him for that—don't think she was forgiving him now, whatever she said to Tippy.
 

Me, I'd be thrilled if Irvy asked Rikki to compose a love song for me. That'd be so cool, and soooooo romantic. He had commissioned Halleigh to create one of her exclusive cards for me from time to time, and we'd been to the Little Theater often enough to see Thomi perform in plays—when she wasn't off making a film someplace. Of course, then we'd go see her latest movie. But a song would be the ultimate prize—next to him actually saying "I love you," that is! I mean, I knew he did, but it'd be the topper if he could say the words, too!
 

I'm afraid that my jealousy of Dante's earnest romanticisms made me want to blubber some more. That I could ask Rikki to write a song for Irvy only came to my mind later. She didn't happen to be with her family today. Having had enough of trying to guess which triplet he was with lately, Stephan had shipped her off, Monday morning, to New York to make it easier for himself this week. Of course, he'd thought, at the time, he'd been getting rid of Halleigh.
 

So Rikki hadn't been home, then, when I had called Cliff Top right after I heard about Matty's accident. No doubt her sisters had phoned her later on to let her know.
 

Tippy let go Colleen's hand to rap my cheek smartly. "Come on, Little Jo! Puffy eyes don't become you! All of you, c'mon, let's remember the good times!"
 

Colleen slipped her hand back into Tippy's. "How can they, Tippy? Joleigh and Irvy were supposed to get married tomorrow, remember? Matt was supposed to be Irvy's best man!"
 

He smacked his forehead with the flat of his hand. "Ah! That's right! Bummer!" And he hugged me, kissing the top of my red hair. "I'm gonna get Irvy over here," he told me. "You need him. I'd never let Colleen go through something like this alone! Not that I feel Jace should be deserted—but you know . . . you're a woman! They should both be with you!"
 

And with that, Tippy, with Colleen clasped to his side, went off to tell my brother and my fiancé what he thought of their thoughtlessness in leaving us "all alone". Guess he felt our friends weren't strong enough to help bear our sorrows.
 

I knew that Colleen hadn't meant to stir up any hurt as Aunt Willa had earlier. Not sure how I let Aunt Willa's dig get by me. Hadn't wanted to think about it, I guess. I'd spent the last three days trying not to think about tomorrow. So close to being with Irvy forever. This was something else that no doubt his mother was thanking her lucky stars for—the postponement of our wedding! Whoa! Wouldn't she hate it if he ever asked Rikki for a love song for me!
 

In any case, instead of Matt standing at Irvy's side as his best man, Irvy would make up one of the pallbearers at Matt's funeral tomorrow afternoon. Discussing new plans just hadn't fit into any conversation. Everything was pretty much left up in the air. Not many had mentioned it openly, either. Those who had were genuinely interested in our future together, that is. The others, like Aunt Willa, (and Mrs. Woodworth), were, without doubt, hoping we'd forget about it or drift apart now Matt wasn't there.
 

Tippy had a slight problem dislodging Irvy from Jace's side, but he hit an even bigger wall with my brother who scowled and hunched away from him. Irvy glanced across, gave in to my imploring gaze and came over. Thomi, Halleigh, and Lyndsay moved to make room for him.
 

Taking me into a light embrace, he explained, "It's not that he doesn't want to be with you, it's just he doesn't know how to handle his grief. He really needs to let it out, but he can't. Not yet. He just needs someone to stay with him without expecting anything from him . . . . I don't know—maybe I do, too." Irvy took one arm away, and included Lanette in our comfort hug.
 

Which really didn't feel all that much of a comfort, really. I saw my friends exchange a glance among themselves, but whatever they were thinking, they kept it to themselves. Tippy and Colleen stayed with Jace. Not speaking, just providing a silent solace for him as Irvy had.
 

Okay, I understood Jace's trouble. I did, really. But I needed the warmth of a hug to console me and someone's ear to listen to the memories I wanted to live on forever. Thought that's what brothers, especially twin brothers—and fiances—were for. Thought that's what they'd need from me, too. I needed to feel Irvy's solid protection enveloping me. Wanted to feel his love for me. I felt lost without Matt, but without Jace, and definitely without Irvy, I'd be missing without a trace! I'd loved Irvyn since before I formed my first word. "Irby!"
 

We'd shared peanut butter and jelly sandwiches with him, and he'd shared the cookies his mother would bake—so she wouldn't appear to be slighting. Irvy'd known best—thanks to his Dad—how to care for cuts and broken limbs until help arrived. How and when to treat us both like the girls we were—which Matt and Jace never seemed to learn. Seemed totally natural to me now, that he'd drape an arm about my cousin, and talk as gently to her as he did to me.
 

"I can't take any more of this!" uttered Lanette suddenly, ignoring everything Irvy had just said to her. "I can't listen to them yak about Matt and us, anymore! Although it'd make me sicker if they were crying over him the way they did over Uncle Claude back in April, and then over Lawron in June. Like they were their best buddies! No one ever liked Uncle Claude, anyway! I mean, Turdy should've been his son!"
 

She swept a disgusted gesture at The Club and those who'd since joined their group. "No one's going to want to follow through on any plan to keep in touch! It's all talk! They said all this at Uncle Claude's funeral, too, and at Lawron's! Nobody ever wanted Matt around—he was too wild—too crazy! Not serious enough for any of the Snoot Club! Irvy, tell my parents I want to go home!"
 

He didn't, but instead led our select little group away to a small alcove closed off from the left side of the room by a lattice partition by which potted trees and great vases of flowers had been placed.
 

Lanette dropped onto the sofa, and propped her head in her hands, and let her grief spill yet again. I'm not sure what Tippy said, but Jace came over and sat with her. But, unlike the rest of us, including our friends, his own tears he kept inside.
 

Aunt Nedra slipped into our group to offer some of her gentle, coaxing words of comfort, which only grated Lanette's nerves and mine, and set Jace's jaw in a grimmer line. Frankly, we were tired of hearing that Matt was now in a better place in any tone of voice.
 

Why would God need to call people of any age to become angels? How many did he need, after all, if he already had myriads? Besides—how could she be so sure that's where he was, when the rest of The Club felt positive he was rotting and burning in Hell! Or was he the first person to be residing in two places at once?
 

I didn't think he was in either place, frankly. Dead is dead. No roses in winter.
 

Not many had planned to show up for our wedding tomorrow. At the time, I hadn't cared. Simply and only cared about being Irvy's forever. Now, however, a burning desire to celebrate the double anniversaries of my parents' and Lanette's in a huge way swelled within me—yeah, and my wedding . . . whenever it finally took place. How any of it would come about, actually, I had no more a clue than I had three months ago. I only knew a profound determination to get everyone together to celebrate something positive and happy!
 

You know—like LIFE.
 

This keen notion suddenly got cut off when a small body hurled itself at my knees. Irvy kept me standing; I'd've fallen for sure otherwise! "Jarrett! Where'd you come from? You're supposed to be with the Marshals! How'd you get here?"
 

"I sneaked out," he declared stoutly. "And I d'wanna go back. Why's Matty sleepin' in that funny lookin' bed, Joleigh? How come he's sleepin' when all the buddies are here?" All the buddies was his four-year-old way of saying everybody. "How come he d'wanna play with me? Make him get up, Joleigh! Make him!"
 

Oh, geez . . .! We'd already tried to explain to him that Matt wouldn't be playing with any of us anymore. But he hadn't gotten the message very well . . . or at all. I picked him up, hugging him tightly, and tried again to make him understand.
 

"Jarrett, look—everybody's here because Matty's not ever getting out of that funny looking bed. They're here to say goodbye to him, even though he can't hear any of us. Remember when Nikki died—you remember? The car hit her, and we all said goodbye to her when we buried her under the tree behind our house?"
 

Halleigh ruffled his red curls. "We all came for that, remember, Squirt? You had us sing doggy songs for her."
 

He pouted; he remembered. And it set off his mourning in great shape. He yanked the collar of my blouse, his tears breaking like a sudden cloudburst. "I didn't want her to die! She was my dog! I got no dog now! I got no Matty now! Make him get up! Make him!"
 

"Ah, Jarrett . . ." I hugged him closer, tried to calm him with soft words and kisses. It didn't work, and in the end, I just cried with him.
 

"This is how Jaimee would be if she were here," Lanette uttered, her own tears gathering again. "If she knew—"
 

No one had told her yet. She'd thrown way too horrible a fit when she'd thought Thomi'd deserted her. How would she take hearing about Matty's death? Thomi had defied Stephan's wishes and her doctors orders in order to appear in that play last night for Jaimee. But Matty wouldn't be defying anyone. He'd be in that casket forever now.
 

Uncle Ralph, on his way to his first attempt at dragging Aunt Willa away, saw Jarrett sobbing in my arms and came over. "What's the trouble, little man?"
 

"I want my Matty," declared Jarrett-Andrew, defiant through his tears. He raised his head with new hope. "Get him up, Uncle Ralph! Make him laugh! I wanna ride in the Soup Beetle!"
 

"Little man, if I could, I would. But listen, how would it be if I took you out on my boat sometime, eh? We could do a little fishing."
 

Jarrett brightened a little. Until he remembered that Matt couldn't go with him. It set off his howls afresh. Looked like one of us would have to take him out of here. He'd probably only get worse.
 

Was a nice gesture on Uncle Ralph's part to offer to take him fishing, though? Trouble was, sometime could be any time. Generally, like tomorrow, it never came.
 

Be wonderful if I could change that for once . . . somehow . . .
 

     


Excerpt

“Did you think you'd have to give up your interest just because Matt was gone?”



“Well . . . yeah. Mom wants me to be a girl. And . . . the cars weren't mine . . .”



“They are now, and she'll come around. You're the best one to teach Jarrett everything he needs to know. Matt didn't hold back anything when he instructed you. What he knew, you know. Jarrett's thrilled with the arrangement-whatever he actually understood of it. He's talking about going to rally school now. Think he thinks it comes before kindergarten!”



“I'm sure he does! You know what The Club is going to say when they find this out?”



“Yeah! Isn't it great?”



I laughed. “Perfect! Thanks, Irvy. I appreciate this.” Oh, in the worst way I wanted to fling myself into his arms and kiss him! Wrapping my arms around myself, I blurted instead, “So . . . what about your interests now?”



“Mine?” More a statement than a question. The reserve shadowed his eyes and touched his tone with a certain coolness. The lighter moments were banished.



“Yeah. Set me straight here! Have I dropped out of your top one hundred?” I hadn't meant to phrase it quite like that; it just slipped on out.


Must've hit a nerve. “You know you've been further up the line than that,” he told me after a slight pause. “But--this is hitting me in a way I never expected it would, Joleigh. I-I need some time.”



“Yeah? How much time? We were supposed to be married now! I was thinking we could get married on my parents' anniversary. Everyone would already be there, and it's only--”



“Ah, Joleigh . . . that's really not a good idea. Let's just have the party for them and let that day be theirs.”



All right, I'd figured it was too crazy and selfish a plan myself. But I was hoping he wouldn't mind that. So while it was a small comfort that he'd said, “Let's just have the party. . .” instead of “You just have . . .” I wanted some real assurance I wasn't a page in his history book. Wanted to hear we were yet a couple ourselves. An assurance our marriage would come about-soon! Which prompted me to challenge, “Fine! Tell me our license isn't going to expire before we discuss our day!”



By the look in his eyes, it was evident he hadn't a clue how to answer me. Which was sad. The license was valid for another couple of months. He needed more time than that?



Bewildered and feeling pretty much like old Fritz had slammed me in the gut, I dared to reach out and touch him. “Why does it have to change just because Matt's gone? Why can't we help each other through this? Why're you backing off? Why's Jace? At the wake--”



I stopped, suddenly recollecting what he'd said to me at the wake. How he'd stayed pretty much with Jace until Tippy persuaded him over. It'd already started changing between us, and I hadn't recognized it. Just had thought it was grief and that kind of thing. I mean, who could miss it in Jace's behavior because it was so obvious. But still, he'd treated everyone in the same angry manner--except Jarrett and Irvy. Irvy'd been--well--like his mother . . . sort of.



A horrible notion swept over me, and I vented it. “This feels a whole lot like good bye! That why you're doing this for Jarrett and me? Because you think it'll hurt less?”



“It's not like that, Joleigh.”



“No? You haven't acted like you wanted to be around me since before we buried Matt! Maybe you haven't noticed, but we're all hurting here! Just because you don't need me to hold you, doesn't mean I don't need that from you! I'll always need it from you!”


The romantic quality of the moonlight faded away . . . showing me something else totally unexpected. How utterly unapproachable he appeared . . . untouchable! The moonlight illusion and the chill I detected in his manner curbed my desire to be in his embrace. When he didn't reply to that, I wrapped my arms about myself once again, suddenly needing him to leave-right now- so he'd never see my heart bleed.



But no, he moved a step closer, and he cupped my face in his hand, caught my tears on his fingertips. For a second I thought he'd kiss me. His hand dropped away, and with just a look I think was regret, he walked quickly to his car and left.





Professional Reviews

The Romance Studio
Joleigh-Anna Kelmann's world has just been altered drastically. Her best friend, racing partner, and cousin has been killed in a street race. His funeral is on the day that should have been her wedding day. She hasn't just lost her cousin Matt. Her fianc� Irvy just left her at the graveside, saying that he needs time and space. Soon after, she sees him with the gorgeous Holly, one of the women on his mother's preferred list. She is shattered but determined to get him back, sending him cards, notes, and flowers to remind him that she loves him still. He still rejects her, and she gives up, sinking into depression. The only thing that interests her is the planning of her parents and aunt and uncle's joint anniversary party. There is a problem; her family only seems to gather at funerals, and the regrets are coming fast and furious. Another near tragedy gives Joleigh the idea to fake her death. That will bring people to the party in droves!

This story is told in breezy conversational style. I loved Joleigh and her determination to go on after fate and her fianc� blow her world apart. I wanted to hate Irvy and did for most of the book; his self-centered attitude made me angry. After we meet his mother I can understand why he is the way he is, but have hopes that he will change. Joleigh's aunts, The Club, are truly horrible people, but I loved Irvy's uncle and Lanette's family. The little brother Jarrett is wonderful comic relief in this warm story about family, tragedy, and how we recover.

Overall rating:4 hearts
Sensuality rating: Sweet

Reviewer: Maura Frankman
November 23, 2006


Amazon Book Review
The Resurrection of Joleigh-Anna Kelmann is an amusing take on a serious subject. Actually, on more than one subject. How families get along . . . or not . . . how they perceive each other and each other's faults. And how they react to the death of loved ones. Sometimes not the way one would think.

Joleigh's world crashes around her when her fiancé, Dr. Irvyn Woodworth, leaves her on the day her favorite cousin Matt, is buried. Matt and Irvy were best friends since before kindergarten. And it's the opinion of some of Joleigh's family, that it was the only reason Irvy even looked at Joleigh twice. Sort of dumb, since Joleigh was a baby when she started liking Irvy, and his name, "Irby" was her first word. Some think that Joleigh is the wrong girl for him anyway, and he could do better.

His mother certainly thinks so.

Joleigh's family seems to be like many families today. Too caught up in their own lives to find time to do more than meddle in other's affairs. To spend really meaningful time with one another . . . not so much. So how Joleigh goes about dealing with these issues is hilarious. Her little brother, Jarrett, adores both his big sister and Irvy, and doesn't understand why they aren't seeing each other. He's adorable comic relief! I loved her parents and her Cousin Matt's family. They are supportive of their kids, and that was a wonderful contrast to the rest of their relatives, particularly The Club who are stuck on themselves and don't seem to have a good word for anyone else. Oh, Irvy's doctor uncle is great too!

Written in first person, Ms Davis-Wilson has an easy, breezy way of telling this story. Plus, she brings in characters from her first novel, All for the Love of Thomi. (See my review of Thomi on her page). I loved that story, and it was like seeing old friends again when they showed up in Joleigh's story.

I recommend this book to anyone and everyone who loves a good amusing tale of family, friends, forgiveness, and fun.



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